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Monday, June 30, 2008
why why? ; Nina. why cant i be as kind as mum and dad? why cant i be as softspoken as dad? why cant i be as forgiving as dad? why cant i be as softhearted as mum? why am different from then? i mean im their daughter. i know im their one and only daughter. they are always willing to help others no matter what. no matter its 3 or 4 in the morning. i always hesitate when i feel like helping. get what i mean? why cant they pass down their good and commendable character to me? i hate it when they say brother looks more like dad. i know im being selfish but i just dont like it. i know i look more like dad than mum. my lips maybe. but my nose, eye, cheek.. its from dad. sigh i dont know why im typing all this crap but i feel that... hmm nvm and where are you my mr national day? monday the 30th! ; Nina. haha. didnt want to go to school today but remembered its ms chen's birthday today. yay! cupcakes and cards. so today did my oral conversation in english class. got like 11 out of 16. not bad.... Friday, June 27, 2008
sorry! ; Nina.  okay im sorry i know the pic below is a bit too obscene but thats art right? alright enough of art.(before i get tired of it) FINALLY! mum agreed to tuition. yes! im starting tomorrow, hopefully theres improvement in prelim. from 3.5 to 60? im sure i can do it. life sucks. i just dont know whats wrong. i just feel it that way. sigh! alright tomorrow is my dearest first birthday! yaya! its gonna be a long day man. hi again. ; Nina. im currently blogging in school library. been busy since the start of school. hectic. im working hard on my art. i've seriously wasted six months not working on them. sheesh. sucks la. now every single time i'll try to do my art. dateline is 18 august eh wahlau. i've done only like what"? 15 percent? or less. i'll show you my artist reference okay. i know its a bit obscene lah but what to do! wait ah .jpg) Sunday, June 22, 2008
we rock it! ; Nina. hey dearies, im back. hahahaha. yeah we had fun during the netball camp but im kinda sad cause im not going to lead the team anymore cause the seniors are graduating and have to concentrate for o's. (but im still going for training when i feel like it and no one can stop me.) i want to maintain my stamina. hahaha okay lol. so the game was a bit chaotic in a sense that we were really a chaotic bunch of gundus. hahaha. me, nisa and nurul had to sleep on the floor because theres not enough matress. its okay seniors give in. haha. now im a senior captain cause i passed down my position to the new captain, Hira.(congratulations dear) yeah yeah okay played quite a number of games. and surprisingly we are changing coach and he's a guy and he's firm yet funny. and want to know what not? he 'banned' the netballers from eating and drinking certain foods. EXAMPLES! no drinking of caffeinated drinks(correct not the spelling?), no teas everythimg that have got to do with tea.(oh my ice lemon tea) non carbonated drinks except h two o and 100plus, OMG! nad no starbucks no red bull. food food food.. no fastfood except from burger king and subway(grilled ones and heavenly god! i've never intend going for foods from subway. and last but not the least(hahahaha) NO NUGGETS! cant you all see that these are all my favourites? and one more thing no bubble tea. sigh. and hes giving us a list of foods and drinks that we can consume tomorrow. (but its kinda okay atleast i can watch my diet as well.) okay till yesterday, reached home, post some letter, went to sleep at 4 and woke up at 7. and now im feeling sick and tired. went to see nisa just now to get some english worksheet. (i didnt know theres homework. damn it!) okay gotta be going. its calling me its calling me. hahaha. and oh yeah. the pics during the camp will come as soon as i get them transferred. okay? hahaha. see you soon sayangs. school starting again tomorrow. sigh!
the seniors lah. duh. im at the back middle. Monday, June 16, 2008
untitled ; Nina. okay i just like cancelled everything i've typed. so stupid. love is when you shed a tears when he said he loves another girl and you say you'll be happy for him when all you do is actually cry. i just realised, between love and the desire to own are two different things. okay la im not trying to be jiwang here la. these are just sentences that captured my heart the moment i herard or read them. didnt go for my ss remedial know. been having bad feelings since morning eh. i've been having weird dreams too. like me killing someone with an axe(not mentioning who) and also a pistol. and and oooooooooooooooooo havin g lotsa cash in my purse. oh how i wish it'll come true. omg im still having butterfly in my stomache la. its been a week since that thigy happened. im alright im still breathing. seriously im okay with it already. but that day when you(you know who you are but i dont mean anything. serious)told me that he called you and stuffs, i got a bit of jealous and i dont know. its just a feeling. but seriously babe im not blaming you. i bet its a normal thing normal feeling to have sometimes. really really im getting on well. and that day, that day i was angry thats why i typed all those stuff. too emotional.(atleat i realise) okay okay enough of all that already. ;) Labels: blah blah school, life, love, family ; Nina. holy holy. holy shit. im sick and tired of all those aunties and uncles telling me to study hard and get all those good jobs. hello cant you seee im struggling here. for that damn piece of paper, laminated. well, all you guys know is saying all those wise words. but what? are you the one whos going to pay for my tuition fee and all? huh? if i can do really well in my fucking maths, i dont need fucking tuition, right? obviously the teacher in my school, not working on me anymore. cant you people seeeeee? omg! hundred fifty a month is holy cheap. like come anytime you want and its still hundred fifty. please lah think logic. academic level nowadays are getting more and more difficult. think what? still in the kampong days is it? study under the blissful trunk of coconut tree. one plus one equals two?(its not two actually, proven by some genius). oh god im not underestimating the kampong standard of living but this is singapore sey. and its only for the next four months. okay okay dont want talk about it anymore. Sunday, June 15, 2008
???? ; Nina. watched ayat ayat cinta again last night. you know from a website. still...... cannot cry i dont know why know. im disappointed that i still i cant cry after watching it twice like wth! slept at 7 in the morning and then woke up at like 3 in the afternoon. wahlau eh. cheebs. you know oh my god it suck when you know you want tocry but you cant. its like a big lump of i dont know what stucked in your throat. just there. okay lah bored know. sigh tomorrow im having ss remedial. -_-.. like finally had a chat with april. (dont think about it in a different way ah). but just a short one. nevermind. okay okay gtg. Labels: llol Saturday, June 14, 2008
YUMMY PRAWN DAY! ; Nina. i cooked lunch for za and myself today.(well supposed to be breakfast but you know) fried bun but turned out hangus(burnt) and yeah made some roti john using tuna and egg. simple not? hahaha i can teach if you guys wanna know? hahaha kidding uh kidding. then cooked my favourite. prawn cooked with margerine and pepper. haha. okay i guess ill let the picture do the talking on how much we enjoyed eating. yummy yummy.      shiok not? shiok right. omg! heaven man. took 45 mins just to enjoy the sweetness of that seafood. god! MARVEL-LICIOUS! Friday, June 13, 2008
no title la bodoh! ; Nina. eh went for tuition just now know. like maths tuition eh. im so gonna plead my mum to let me have this tuition teacher okay. just now was like a try out! then yesterday did art. like wth! fun but you know me. cannot get so into it. hahaha. oh and bloody hell! just now took train with za right after the tuition. then there's this green tattooed eyebrow bitch was like staring at us. then her hubby(eeewwww) was carrying the stupid maybe 6years old son. expecting us to give seat to her husband. like hello! then then when we alighting right she motioned her lao po(whatever the spelling is) then she was like. come and seat, some people dont know how to give seats. eh get yourself bloody pregnant la. then i;ll give you the damn seat. we were from chua chu kang eh to eunos. what do you expect? a seat right? hahahaha. then went home, mama(elizas mum) bought us mee soto from inspirasi stall(inspirational stall) hahaha. woah i tell you ah today was like revise your maths day. four precious hours know. hahaha atleast it was worth it and i swear i dont regret it. yesterday the man called fadly went msn and he was like im sure you're disgusted by my behaviour. DUH! but thank god eliza was beside me. so she was like dont reply. dont be too softhearted. nina you have to be strong and firm. hahahaha. oh my. april im waiting for you to come online. hahahaha. come on babe. okay. im not sleepy and im sure we're watching movie again tonight. last night was this is england. and fell in like with pukey nicholi aka jack o' connell. ;) ;) Wednesday, June 11, 2008
oh my oh my! ; Nina.    my two besties know. know them anot? uhm i really want to post a very long essay now but i cant im running out of time. im meeting eliza and she'll scream if im gonna be late.(but its okay sometimes she come late also, wahlau) i really want write about me and my life. now. oh god its so horrible this few days after the break up. its not that i cant accept it or being what-so-ever. but its killing me inside know. like im suffocating. not because he left but because i cant make the thought go away. like every morning wake up thinking that theres going to be a msg. (my sim card is spoilt anyways. its kats not mine. lost mine at sarawak. like wth!~) oh im so pissed. okay but i really want to thank riduan for accompanying me at night on the phone.(sms) like we talked about love, songs, indonesian blood people.(i think indonesian people are hot.not all though.) oh he;s really a good person to talk to. huh riduan? like saying theres no negative side of me? im sexy huh? im comfortable around you too dude.;) and and thanks nisa, eliza and kat too for cheering me up. i really appreciate it tau. and oh! april. thanks thanks. yeah i think we should like meet up and bitch about that guy huh?(whats his name again?)ahaha anyway yeah im supposed to meet za now like at three fifteen. im late. hahaha oooooooo. okay i get back later okay. with long essay. hahaha. hopefully za wants to follow me to the pit with kat. and yeah im sleeping over her place again.but this time we're going to study.(shall see how it goes huh?) Monday, June 09, 2008
love love and love! ; Nina. i know posting two post an hour after another is stupid. but im freaking bored. i've nothing to type actually. im just bored. im staring at this bloody comp for i dont know how long. okay let me try. uhm.. sigh. wth! okay! anyway, nvm. secondhand serenade. what a song you dedicated to me boy. alright how about tattoo lyrics? jordin sparks? i just l-o-v-e the song alot. hmm lets see if i can get them. Oooh... Oooh... Ohhh..No matter what you say about love, I keep coming back for more, My head in the fire, sooner or later I get what i’m asking for No matter what you say about life, I learn every time I bleed.The truth is a stranger My soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free to, Admit that I was wrong and then change my mind. sorry but i have to move on and leave you behind I can’t waste time so give me the moment I realize nothing’s broken No need to worry about everything I’ve done Lived every second like it was my last one. Don’t look back got a new direction Loved you once, needed protection. You’re still a part of everything I do, you’re on my heart just like a tattoo, Just like a tatto, I’ll always have you. I’m sick of playing all of these games It’s not about taking ties. When I look in the mirror, Didn’t deliver It hurt enough to think that I could stop Admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind. Sorry but I gotta be strong and leave you behind I can’t waste time so give me the moment I realize nothing’s broken No need to worry about everything I’ve done Lived every second like it was my last one. Don’t look back got a new direction Loved you once, needed protection You’re still a part of everything I do, you’re on my heart just like a tattoo, I’ll always have you. If I live every moment Won’t change any moment Still a part of me and you. I will never regret you Still the memory of you Marks everything I do. I can’t waste time so give me the moment I realize nothing’s broken No need to worry about everything I’ve done Lived every second like it was my last one Don’t look back got a new direction Loved you once, needed protection. You’re still a part of everything I do, you’re on my heart just like a tattoo Just like a tattooI’ll always have you. who's ditching who? ; Nina. the patched up was really a big mistake. im not gonna cry like how i did the first time. its tiring and damn exhausting(its the same thing). but i really want to thank you man. my morning was real great to received a msg from you. like should i type them all and let people read. okay i guess i should. lets start. msging in the morning like at one forty seven. wait should i say your name? yeah okay i will. fadly: hey you asleep yet? i know this sounds harsh. but i wanna break up. cause i dont have feelings for you. sigh.;( (like why are sighing b-a-s-t-a-r-d?) nina: okay fine. but i need an explanation. fadly: cause i've found the right girl. nina: ooh thats fast. who's she? Fadly: she's a girl. nina: hahahaha like duh she's a girl. you mean all that while was a try out? no feelings? fadly: uhm. dont msg me anymore cause she doesnt like girls to msg me. (what a loser you are guy) nina: yeah good for you. she must be a real good girl. empty plain lies! bye! oh since i cant msg you anymore.the last one im going to ask a favour from you. i may sound like a damn bitch (you make me sound like a bitch). but pls tell her that she dont have to not like girls to msg you cause she should know that you wont flirt, right?you wont leave her? hahahaha. should i say all the best? heh! what goes around her comes around? hahaha. bye syg! oops. :) and he didint reply. hahahaha look man. i dont need a guy if he's like you. i have to admit that you're hot and that i still love you.(omg i cant believe i said that but i really do.) but that doesnt mean anything. i really want to cry but i cant. im sad, i want to cry but i cant. im angry and thats why im typing all this. but i still cant cry. maybe you really are a s-w-e-e-t talker. (should've listened to kat.) should i claim all the days you owe me? or should i say owed? the oh-your-so-special-day and the nina-oh-so-pretty-day. omg! i just cant believe this. hahaha funny kan. oh my all the "you know i wont leave you, right?" and the "everytime im with you, i could feel my wounded heart are healing" like omg. you told me your previous ex ditched you for another guy. may i ask you who's ditching who right now?(i thank your ex for doing that. you deserve it.) and and oh! the "will you fall for guys easily" qn? was it for me or for you? who's the one having an affair? hahaha. you really are unpredictable. im in pain right now. i really wish you are standing right in front of me right now so that i could slap your face. oh my! and will she be the first to taste your bike? which is like next year? (oh whoever that b-i-t-c-h is, she's just one.) maybe im too softspoken. huh? or maybe im too patient and trust you so much that you even have a relationship with that bitch even before you break up with me. i didnt know you are smart. AND FADLY ALFADY, I SWEAR TO MYSELF THAT IM NOT GONNA CRY FOR YOU FOR THE SECOND TIME. CAUSE ITS STUPID! IM NOT GONNA LET THIS HAPPEN THE THIRD TIME. YOU'RE NOT WOTRH CRYING FOR. SADISTIC CREATURE!(whatever that means) OH GOD IN SUPER MAD! well like i told you. what goes around comes around right? we'll see how long will your relationship last? 4 months? 2 months? hahaha. p/s: oh fadly how i wish you read this. and im sorry i call your girlfriend a bitch, boy. Saturday, June 07, 2008
OMG! thats like so totally awesome. ; Nina. hey. i just got back from sarawak. it was a damn nice place. but still it was tiring. the sightseeing and stuffs. the foods. like omg! haha(sorry za). okay where shall i start? hmm.. alright let me start off with the first day. we did nothing much except for the flying across water. boarding and alighting the bus (i hate that but thats how i could reached sarawak). oh we went to stay at the longhouse. can you like imagine living together with skulls and all those scary mask? yeap thats like all we did for the first day. and oh how can i forget we went for a tour in the kampong.(i fell in like with one of the kampong guy. he've got style and fashion sense. omg!~ nina you've got a boyfriend) eliza im sorry hahaha. you should have went. and yeah i just remembered la.. we went to watch their traditional dance show. second day oh my this is like the most memorable day of the memorable. WE WENT TO THE WATERFALL AND HAD A LONG BATH THERE. (that can descrigoes to show that we only brushed our teeth and washed our face for breakfast. hahaha) the waterfall.. the water was super cold and the rocks, nice?(though it hurt our feets. free massage.) me, kat, faz, niza and bibi, we conquered a spot and sing out loud in the middle of the jungle. theres only a phrase that can describe it all "OMG! THATS LIKE SO TOTALLY AWESOME!" hahaha. well what else,.. walking in the jungle was quite scary(cikgu liza fell) oops! okay i guess its gonna take the whole day if im gonna talk about the sarawak trip. i guess i shall like continue in my next post about life in the suite. hahaha (didnt expect it to be a suite) alright alright i shall continue in my next post cause its a long thing. hahah and oh! im going to include all the photos we took there next time aite? like soon. and guess what? we took like almost 300 pics. p/s: eliza. im posting this for you. hahaha. i'll talk about the shopping too. ;) ;) i cant wait to show you the bag i bought. hahaha. okay okay next post. i gtg. ;) Sunday, June 01, 2008
c-o-c-k-r-o-a-c-h! ; Nina.    im a student under alot of pressure. o level is coming but im still failing. like seriously very bad. like getting 3.5 for my math. omg! can you like imagine? i NEED MATH TUTOR!!! since im having a month long holidays, i shall start on my timetable and get started. (its always the same thing but things are still the same.) okay besides that, should i say that i have a bestfriend who really need treatment. like psychologically. (i'll elaborate on her later) well now lets talk about my day. i've been sleeping over eliza's place for like 3 days? yeah. we did like alot of stuffs since its only me and her in the house.(dont think of it in a wrong way) its not exactly about today itself but also the past few days. we were supposed to have accounts remedial on friday. no no we talked about ayat ayat cinta. the story is damn good i tell you(though i still cant cry even when i tried to) you guys must really watch them. but i heard they are no longer showing. just get dvd. ;) uhm.. uploaded pictures.. cooked scrambled eggs.. yeah just that for that day. BUT! as usual we were already in the mood to do crazy stuffs. i mean we still are. and yesterday. we couldnt sleep so we decided to watch THE MEAN GIRLS. oh my god thats like so totally awesome! (desiree say it very well.) we had such a great day. and the most fantastic thing we did today was playing with half dead c-o-c-k-r-o-a-ch!! look at the pics okay? i guess thats all for now.. |
