Joy beneath painted rainbows

my two besties know. know them anot?

uhm i really want to post a very long essay now but i cant im running out of time. im meeting eliza and she'll scream if im gonna be late.(but its okay sometimes she come late also, wahlau)

i really want write about me and my life. now. oh god its so horrible this few days after the break up. its not that i cant accept it or being what-so-ever. but its killing me inside know. like im suffocating. not because he left but because i cant make the thought go away. like every morning wake up thinking that theres going to be a msg. (my sim card is spoilt anyways. its kats not mine. lost mine at sarawak. like wth!~) oh im so pissed. okay but i really want to thank riduan for accompanying me at night on the phone.(sms) like we talked about love, songs, indonesian blood people.(i think indonesian people are hot.not all though.) oh he;s really a good person to talk to. huh riduan? like saying theres no negative side of me? im sexy huh? im comfortable around you too dude.;) and and thanks nisa, eliza and kat too for cheering me up. i really appreciate it tau.

and oh! april. thanks thanks. yeah i think we should like meet up and bitch about that guy huh?(whats his name again?)ahaha anyway yeah im supposed to meet za now like at three fifteen. im late. hahaha oooooooo. okay i get back later okay. with long essay. hahaha. hopefully za wants to follow me to the pit with kat. and yeah im sleeping over her place again.but this time we're going to study.(shall see how it goes huh?)