 Like any other women, I have my own idol, I want a happy life student under pressure. I want to explore Africa, marry a pilot, honeymoon in a hot air balloon and get solemnise on water! FT students are real hot. Brad Pitt and Barack Obama, they are my idol. |
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
am i wrong? ; Nina. i dont know why? i know its wrong to do that. to repeat the same mistakes again over and over when i know its wrong. i cant fathom it. why cant human beings control their emotions? i mean i positively very sure that i can put a stop to what im going through now. i've told three of my friends and they all say the same thing to me. i truly understand and am very sure that im not going to pursue. and even if i want to, it can never happen cause it will never happen. im sorry. i dont realize when emotions starts to get control of me, when emotions turns me into a bitch who secretly betray her friend. close friend. i know things are going on as normal but im starting to realize that im the one who feels awkward when facing you, though you know nothing. i like it when he calls me for help when he put his bag on my lap when he smiles at me directly into my eye. i tried. to control. i managed to. but i realize im never satisfied. always feeling jealous. and its sickening when you thinks that i still like him when im actually liking him.(undrstand?) evil thoughts running very wild on how to make him close to me. im sorry dear friend. im sure i'll get over this very soon. soon enough before you realize that im "betraying" you. its just a crush. normal feelings girls get. nothing more than just e liking him. just say like a brother. its gonna be like before. |
