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Wednesday, August 27, 2008
UNTITLED ; Nina. Here and again, i fall. Not once not twice. I stumble each time i reminisced. Of you, of our dreams. You made life seem to be a smooth path. Truth hidden beneath frozen surfaces. You made love sound a happy tune. Sadness engraved like never surfacing. But when you left, you left nothing but unexplained essays. What am i to do? You make soluble chemical flow like eternal stream. Was it tears or was it an expression of meaningless agonizing emotion? Here and again, i crossed edgy ocean. Guideless. Indefinite. Did i forget? Or was i dreaming? Where are you? Here and again, i sit and retrospect. I realised, the life is mine. But no matter what, truth is, i can never define life the moment you stop breathing words into my deaf ear. I miss you, dad. Friday, August 22, 2008
Mr Awesome! ; Nina. Wello.. i was bored, so just now i actually did research on characteristic of a Capricorn woman/lady/girl. not that i believe it luh but sometimes, coincidently it is true. hmm. Trustworthy Ambitious Proficient Independent Thinker Cautious Cunning Temperamental Reserved Loving General behavior: Capricorn is the most serious of all the zodiac signs. independent and (usually) confident. You have a tendency to criticize yourself too much, which can lead to low self-esteem. dependable, but also extremely cautious. You make a fair, but stubborn leader, and this is a job that you can do well. You are very well organized, so you can handle many projects at once. You may go through horrible mood swings, being friendly one moment and mean the next. Romantic behavior: You maintain good relations with members of the opposite sex. You make good and true friends. You are capable of deep and passionate affections. However, in your search for greener pastures, you sometimes switch partners too quickly. Be discreet with the opposite sex as you can face some unpleasant situations. Important Information on Capricornians Good career choices: Financer Banker Manager Conductor Teacher/principal Real-Estate Broker. But cikgu liza sais that capricorns are perfectionist and arrogant. sometimes luh ah. and prefers to be alone.(but love socialising) oh god! imagined. partly true. but nevermind. anyway just now had PE then my mr awesome(which is my PE teacher and also school discipline master) told us that starting next week he's not taking our class for PE. i went like WHAT? why cher? Because... he have to take some class for english. omg im so disappointed. (hint hint) he's hot and awesome and all that i can described. But nevermind im going to make sure he'll take my class again the next month.(oh like real.) at least just now played soccer with him and friends. i cant kick balls so he stood in front of me, turned and smiled.(i was standing at the post) turned again and asked. what are you doing? so i went like " i cant kick balls" and he replied "okay you stand there and ask for the ball."( because we are not in the same team.) smiled and went OKAY! hahahahahahahahah OH MY MR AWESOME!(okay its just like he's my idol, not to the extend of being obssess. no omg! no student teacher relationship okay.) anyway he's staying at the block adjacent to my opposite one.. hahahahahahahah Survey! ; Nina. wohoo.. like finally i managed to find time to blog again. shit art! taking up all the time i have in the world.(exaggerating) hahaha. life have been very miserable. rushing for time. lecture from principal.(fuck make me stand for almost forty five minutes) and! i need to bloody go shopping! let me recall. the last time i went was like....OH GOD! on May. Shit nina! hahahahaha did a few surveys about me on my friends. 1. What you like about me? hanan: your laughter. nurul: everything! eliza: dont ask me stupid qns like this? (hopeless you) Rid : sweet and beautiful. (hahah thanks lah eh) lala: Because you are my best friend! 2. What you hate about me? hanan: you vibrate. (sheesh thats our secret) nurul: nothing! (sure anot you?) eliza: like you dont know like that! your fucking bitch face lah. rid: nothing lala: you dont spend your time with me anymore. (oh im so sorry) 3. im your? hanan: nina nurul: sayang! (netballers!) eliza: principal (stupid you!) rid: very good friend. (same uh same) lala: best friend. actually theres more but lazy lah. important ones. (like its important like that. well okay. i have not much time to update my everyday life but life is going on well i guess. Thursday, August 14, 2008
; Nina. ART YOU SUCK MY LIFE! Monday, August 11, 2008
; Nina. i realise, my posts are getting longer and longer than ever. i wonder why i have so much to say, so much to show nowadays. but i always fail to express. why is it? this year, on the 090808, i dated no one like i did last year. i dated no one! have you ever tried so hard to cry but the tears just cant roll down. so hard that you could feel yourself forcing out tears out of your dried eyes. nothing seem to flow. is it becuse it has harden? but why? what has harden? though you know there's nothing to tear about, there's nothing to think about, but you just know deep inside you there's this space that call out to be recognised, to be acknowledge? what is it? i tried so hard to tear because i know i need to let it out. to express. i just cant understand why i needed to cry when there's nothing to be sad about? i just dont understand myself! Happy National Day! ; Nina.  okay im actually damn pissed that i lost my bloody thumbdrive! omg can you imagine? all my hardwork is in there. sigh hopefully i just misplaced it or something. im very very sad! well yeah on national day went out with Kat and Bibi with a bunch of guys. went to see fireworks. ugh! my thumbdrive. okay, took pic with my phone, but the quality is not as good as the one we took with that guy's camera.( i dont know whats his name) had mc cafe and macs, duh! first time i ever had BigMac cause i cant usually finished it. ugh! the pic quality it really suck to the effing core! i cant get that guy email add to get the wonderful pics from him! arse!     Friday, August 08, 2008
CONNECT SINGAPORE! ; Nina. wow! the connect singapore sounds fun huh? well no! it wasnt. it was the most boring and pathetic national day eve celebration ever sia my school had. in the morning at school we had this singing session. watched dance performance fronm Kat. it wasnt as wowing as i expected it to be. but they did a good job. well basically after that we all went to that braddell area to assemble. like you know we had to line up and hold hands. if i could dismantle my joints and fix it again, i would do tat. fuck lah. anyway we had fun in our own way. we took stupid pictures of stupid poses. hahaha we'll see.  dian belo!    wello, i know i look fat and dump in all these pics. and Dian, she's obssess with me. hahahahahathere's more. i kick your balls Riduan if you disturb me again. i'll make sure you'll be impotent. hahahaha kidding. pinky pinky. lol!
we were like so totally happy because our level of hungerness reached 10 already! hahaha. alright we actually wanted to have all the foods there. it look fucking appetising okay. hanan and i ordered egg and onion prata only that i ordered plain prata as well. eliza had plain and cheese and egg one. while faz? she had kway teow goreng and banana prata. they were so totally awesome its just that it didnjt meet my expectation. they were too crispy. i want those fluffy, soft yet crispy. where can i get them? tekka? well. memories of THE PRATA HOUSE!
NOW THAT MAKE MY DAY! OH GOD I CANT WAIT FOR TOMORROW! ENJOY LIKE CRAZY I TELL YOU! Thursday, August 07, 2008
; Nina.  i know i may look as if im obssessed or desperate or whatever okay. but who's blog is this? mine or yours? dont kpo kpo kay. i dont like. humph! anyway i went to school late today because of some reason. i reached school like at 10? hahaha amaciam? lol. okay i feel as if its a short day today. currently im using ms salina's laptop. she left me in her working room in school cause she have test later. see! she trust me. hahaha. okay im super bored. cikgu liza asked me for help. and just now i just finished blogging for the malay department blog about the sarawak trip which was like so totally awesome.. how am i supposed to go home now? its super dark outside and rains falling heavily. ;) what to do? how?! Gosh. hmm. sigh. well these are my pics when i was in sarawak. ;) not all actually. as time goes i'll just upload in any of my entry cause there's like hundreds of them.            Wednesday, August 06, 2008
im perverse ; Nina. i dont know whats wrong with me. is it because the hormones in me are changing drastically? omg! okay firstly i get irritated with eliza fucking easily. even the slightest thing she did i'll have this irritation in me. fuck lah.' then few days back i shouted at Kat in the canteen during recess over a slightest thing. that happened quite a number of times before. now tell me whats wrong? uhm maybe because im pissed over something. maybe because of the 'friend meet friend's friends day'? alright this was what actually happened la. in one day, three of my friends said the same thing. during recess, firstly eliza told me that our friend saw Fadly. secondly, hanan told me she saw Fazli. lastly(this was it that made me really mad. am i even supposed to?), Kat told me she bumped into BO at esplanade. so i went like WHAT? BO? oh god! that sexy, cute, adorable, charming, irresistible, fair, perfect complexion hot guy. my jaw almost drop. god! i had a huge crush on him. I MISS HIM ALOT! okay i was extremely happy to know that he actually asked how am i doing. god he made me cry, he made me smile, he made me blush.. he made me turn into all kind of emotions. hahaha. was pissed because Kat told me something else after that. im not saying anything. i dont want to be mad again. i have his new number. i want to chat with him. i want to meet him but im too shy to do that. omg! somebody help me! you know the thought of him cant go away now that i know he's there.(though he've always been there.)   oh GOD dont you think he's cute?! Tuesday, August 05, 2008
REASONS OF YOU! ; Nina.  I see you just standing there without any care, in the world to realise i too was there. I dont know what am i to choose, either ways i know i'll lose Then i stole a glance of you. And all seems clear Clear enough to see love is blind. Its unkind plain lies. Unspoken hopes, failure to cope. Deary, you onced call, Im tired of you asking when you know im not okay There's nothing you could do to blow this pain away. A pain you have caused. A love i've lost. I dont need your remorse if its all a force. Im better off. Knowing i never know you. I look back wondering where i've gone wrong. Why have i taken so long, Just to realise you've walked away. Maybe one day, i could do the same. Labels: thanks lovely Friday, August 01, 2008
; Nina. ugh this is so boring. im currently doing my research on terrorism for english project, in school library? ugh i dont know lah what to say actually. im very sleepy. tomorrow got tuition. then havent do ss notes somemore. by tuesday eh we all want the notes so that there'll be time to revise. uhm okay lah actually nina, i know you dont intend to blog since you have nothing interesting to share. EXCEPT the sudden conversation about him and OUR past. hmm. hurts alot. (i could feel the skin deep inside me tearing apart when his name was mentioned.) alright nina, why not you get started with with research. stupid!
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