 Like any other women, I have my own idol, I want a happy life student under pressure. I want to explore Africa, marry a pilot, honeymoon in a hot air balloon and get solemnise on water! FT students are real hot. Brad Pitt and Barack Obama, they are my idol. |
Sunday, September 14, 2008
I. RINDU. AYAH ; Nina. yes had my operation last friday. it was a wonderful yet painful experience. was glad though when the doctor said im a good patient cause i smiled through out the process. haha. okay. i miss my dad okay? why are you so mean? why do you leave me when i still need you? like the least you can do is kiss me for the last time or something? i need you to see me smile. watch me grow, hear me sob? what is so difficult? you know since young im closer to you than mum. you know me best. you know my every desire. you know when im sad, when im happy and when im having a problem. now you tell me, who will be there when i cry at night? when i hide under the blanket, crying silently? now who can i go to, complaining that sister hurt me and put me on his lap? why do you have to go. since you left, its not as if i didnt try making them understand me. only you do. they just refuse to understand me. sometimes even mum dont know what i like, like the simplest thing ever, my favourite food. when i cried last night, did you even know that i was crying, that i was calling for you? no one realised that i was crying because they thought im a strong girl who is defiant, independent, rude and all. fuck it lah. Dad i miss you. i love you, you know that. edited* chatted with shafie and afew words of advice from him if im dreaming wake me up! says: haha tk interesting lah life shafiee says: make it interesting den shafiee says: lyfe is full of surprises u noe shafiee says: u nvr noe wat type of surprises u'll get untill u find it shafiee says: stop leaving in dreams n start living ya lyfe |
