 Like any other women, I have my own idol, I want a happy life student under pressure. I want to explore Africa, marry a pilot, honeymoon in a hot air balloon and get solemnise on water! FT students are real hot. Brad Pitt and Barack Obama, they are my idol. |
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
please wake me up! ; Nina. i never thought of knowing you. liking you. it started of with hatred. i swear i hated you. but you came one day, sat beside me held my hands, hug me tight. i thought things were just fine. as long there's only me and you. but as time passed, you shot me in the head with the fact that we were never together we'll never pursue. and you'd always say, "its not the time yet" almost a year passed when you left me. unexplained. it hurts me when they mention you. to forget you, it took me awhile. but when i almost did. to think that you've walked away. to think that i too could do the same. yesterday, you return like nothing happened. why are making a come back? has the time come? no more high hopes. no more dreams. so i may ask, did i really make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life? yes! i thought it will never happen. never. like i mentioned in my previous post. i dont get it. i swear i shiver the moment he say its him. so i said, dont kid me. why all of the sudden? yes! i admit i was happy. i was over the moon. to know that he remember me. after almost a year, he come back to ask how im doing. i mean why now? why the same month he left? what is this? a trial? yes! and he did call me last night. the same cheerful voice. his normal tone. so he went, "assalamualaikum. nina amiliah ader?' yes! he remembered my full name. i didnt want to talk though i really want to. i almost cried when i put down the phone. was it tears of joy or was it tears of fear? fear of what happened the three months we were 'together'. more tears than joy. but it was not easy to be forgotten. yes! i told Kat. yes! she warned me. im unsure. i may and may not trip again. i never know what emotions can lead me to. Kat. im sorry, i know you're worried for me. because the incident, it was the worse that happened. not once, not twice. but the fifth. like i said, we'll see as time flies. anyway it just happened yesterday. im not sure of today and the day that follows. Eliza, i'll tell you when i see you. cause you know, what i know. and please! if im dreaming, please wake me up. if i forgot, please remind me. and yes! im hoping he'd call again. |
