Joy beneath painted rainbows

"she says: but its so fucked up cause out of everyone he treats me the nicest, NICEST EH. and sorry to bring this up uh but its like you and ____ , wasnt it just perfect? my god. i feel like throwing up "

you know it very well. in fact we know it very well who they are. yes they are kind people. but sometimes they can be really mean. i've experienced it. just like how you are right now. true, all seem so perfect, so sweet, so nice ,so memorable.

but you know, you were once in a situation where its difficult for you to comfort me when he shot me in the head with the fact that we were never together. no history no so what ever. and i dont want to be in that situation when i cant find a way to give the comfort you need after a heartbreak.

if a day can break me into pieces, what about you? you've build that protection wall for so long, if i remember. and suddenly he came, crushing down the wall you've been possessively protecting.

if it took me months to get it over with, what about you? im not being emotional or what here. but its the truth, right? all of you know it well. it wasn't easy. it was tough. now, though i've moved on, hearing his name will open up the wound.

darla, i dont want you to be in that situation. come on, you are a jovial, loving, and violent at times. dont make this issue a problem to you. :) not to show off or just for the sake of saying, but this was what i feel when you open up to me yesterday. i felt angry, sad, worried and all mixed feelings.

but if you feel that he's a good guy and wont hurt you then stop being confused, ok?

we love you, pussy. :) :)