joy beneath painted rainbows

DSA

2009-11-28T23:35:00.002+08:00

firstly i would like to apologise for not updating this blog as often as could cause i have a new weblog to attend to. however, im not abandoning this one just because i got a new one, just that it wont be as much. get what i mean?

ok ok. so today, had quite a tiring but wonderful awesome day as i had volunteer to helped in the DSA christmas party for my beloved HA. btw, DSA is an acronym for Down Syndrome Assn.

rushed to Eypul's house with Apan at 830am to collect the food and stuff and off to Clementi ITE at 1000hr. reached there and helped out with balloons.

ok ok to sum up everything, it was sa great day. great experience and whats most important is that it opens up my mind. nobody is perfect but that doesnt mean they cant do anything else.

2009-11-18T10:59:00.002+08:00

be it im feeling well or not, my attendance is nowhere how i want it to be.

to start off, im absent again today. thanks to the cramp and headache im having. and whats the good news? today is SVE role play which carries 20% of my GPa grade. woah. sorry Xue Ting, my role play partner. so irritating. give me one reason why is school a must? i know the answer is obvious. pfft!

school oh school!

2009-11-16T20:01:00.001+08:00

school is like a burden to me. every morning, it takes me 10 mins to think if i should go to school. and my attendance is getting from bad to worse.

indah sekali

2009-11-14T08:57:00.004+08:00

ok. so went out with boyfriend. planned to have a mini picnic for ourselves at East Coast Park, but the rain yesterday was pretty much an obstacle. so we went to MacDonald's to have lunch cause i didnt eat in the morning at all. :( so i had my McSpicy meal and he had his Double Cheeseburger. (claimed to be his favourite) -.-

anw, so we got 4 game label, the monopoly thingy. so we stick them to the paper. oh! we also got the instant win thingy, so we got free milkshake. shiok skali.

and the rain was still pouring. still, we made our way to the bowling place. looking at uncles striking. wth? hahha. and then we went to the arcade to watch people again. hhah you remember the para para dance thingy? haha i wonder why people play that sia. like.... -.-

so he insist on us playing atleast a game, and so we played the car game. idk whats the name. and obviously, im the loser la kn. arcade game also cannot win, how to take car licence like this. haiyo. suke uh tu you menang. :-p
then... we sat at this bench watching the rain, ripples, splashes and cars and started asking stupid questions (as always) like.. why must the water splash? haha. thanks eh for not answering.

and if we were to wait for the rain to stop, it'll be dark already. so we got ourselves wet, which is thank god my laptop is still working. so off we we go to Parkway Parade with the help of bus 196.

then theres this group of people giving away free milk. sungguh i tk minom susu ok so i gave it to boyfriend.

i was looking for an aquarium shop in parkway but there isnt any. so i started nagging, "harap je besar, aquarium pon tkde" haiyo. boyfriend shake head. and then we went to pastamania to se if we want to get something to eat, but nah uh we didnt buy any. then we went to marks and spencer cause he wants to get a sock. -.- then this lady in there giving away free flowers. idk what flower it is la, its in yellow anw. boyfriend asked me to take but i refused, cause... i dont like flowers ok? unless its black rose. :)

and then we walked pass alot of jewellery shops, so we were looking for rings. and i told him about this ring that i like.

him: "tak suke gold eh?" i shake head.

me: "gold mcm makcik makcik uh" he gave me that face.

him: "white gold kn tk boleh jual?

me: "da beli nk jual buat ape? pki jelah."

him: "tkla, tp kn mcm tk worth it gitu?"

me: "tkpe la, i beli nk pki ape. bkn nk jual
him: "ok"

then.. we went to Giant, to.. idk for what la that man. kt Giant pon jd jln jln. then we went to this minced pork area and i said, lets try cooking sambal babi. hahaha.

after that to Cold Storage because we wanted to have sushi. but not many option la. like nothing like that.

then to harvey norman cause boyfriend feeling feeling nk beli laptop. haha. result kasi kluar dulu ok. haha. :)

we wanted to buy sushi at Ichiban Sushi but the shop was closed. so unlucky that day. :( ke wanted to munch munch but dont know what. belo uh you. i started nagging again and he shake head again cause i've been nagging alot. sorry uh. haha.

finally! out from parkway pardae, we went to, marine parade promenade. there's an aquarium. so we went to look for goldfishes! i like the one named, Red Cap, so cute. :)

in the end, he bought popiah and then sent me home. penat ok. haha but best la.

bile nk jumpe lagi ni?

ok gtg.

anw, idk why but school is getting boring.

-.-

2009-11-11T07:11:00.002+08:00

"bila harus menangis, aku akan menangis. Namun airmata ini telah habis"

if i have to leave you one day, not because i stop loving you. i just stop showing it.

focus.

2009-11-10T21:14:00.003+08:00

13th Nov - submission of LFS video production. (not fully done)

28th Nov - DSA christmas party (volunteer)

24th Nov - visit to Karcher

12th Nov - career fair @ Simei ITE

4th Dec - submission of ETP boutique hotel project (researching)

4th Dec - HSM test

tight schedule, so tell me when can i start working at Conrad? i need that income pls. haha. i need to start saving already for bf's birthday. :)

im yours

2009-11-10T00:15:00.004+08:00

i never expect us to come this far. i didnt have any clue when we first start from scratch. but you are just you. you gave me ample of time to show you myself, my real self. you are just so patient that i cant find a reason to make you leave me. i never want to let go of your arms when you wrap them around me. i like the pressure you put on it, its just so tight that i want to stay in it, for as long as i can.

i like it when you are sleepy, you look like a drunkard. i know thats weird, but i just like it the way you are. i never post an entry about you, but today im very proud to tell the whole world that i have such a boyfriend like you.

you are: -

soft-spoken

patient

loving

idiotic

admirable

you never shout at me ( so far). i love it when you call me baby. its just the tone of your voice. its so nice to listen to.

we've come this far, to this stage, the endurance, the sacrifices we made. it'll be a waste if we let the others come crushing it down. you left me once, and that was enough. not anymore and i'll make sure it wont happen again.

i've never loved someone this much. i've never felt this way before.

you never complain about my pimples (hahah). you never said i look ugly eventhough i feel i am at times.

i love you, bodoh!

love

2009-11-09T18:45:00.003+08:00

i love you when you appreciate what i do.

when you compliment me for what i wear.

when you call me names.

when you laugh at my stupid jokes and faces.

when you dont do things i ask you to just because i ask to cause you dont like it.

when you are angry at me for being not being jealous.

when you are not shy to introduce me to your friends and family.

in short, i love you because you appreciate me for what i am. :)

2009-11-08T21:57:00.002+08:00

a life was killed.

no one knew.

no one asked.

she kept quite.

and that's a nightmare.

it keeps on haunting her.

2009-10-09T16:15:00.003+08:00

mum,
i dont deserved to be called your precious daughter. im the one who shattered your dreams. im the the one who betrayed your trust. im not the one you used to know. im not the you should put your hopes on cause im no longer the girl you can rely on. im so sorry mum cause i did all that without you knowing. without your presence.
i've lost all the respect i once had. to everyone. i find it hard to trust. to respect. not only to others but also to myself. im such a disappointment. i've never felt this way before. whatever it is, i still love you. and the most respected woman you are in my eye.

lin,
thanks for being there when i needed help most. thanks for your kindness and concern. thanks for your time. thanks for making me feel good after everything. i dont know why but you seem to be the perfect figure i can put my trust on. a friend that know for a mere 5 months. thanks for all you've done and what you've been doing.

RAYA OUTING!

2009-10-04T21:23:00.003+08:00

just got back from meeting my Matno. it just feels weeird when you meet up with your girl/guyfriend after a fight cause we'll be acting like two strangers getting to know each other. stands apart and nothing much to talk. i hate that situation. i feel so stupid meeting someone when you dont know what to say. its even more difficult to make eye contact.

we were on the verge of breaking up. i didnt know what to say. but like what people says, tears trickling down a girl's cheek, will melt a guy's heart. thank you so much. i love you pak cik!

anw, sad story aside cause yesterday's raya outing was the best ever. food at every home. forcing them down my throat cause i couldnt resist the temptation.

first thing first, trained down to pasir ris mrt stn to meet my lovely HAs. first home was Apan's. no food there cause his mum was going to work and that caused all of us to grumble because we were famished! but thats ok apan. the cakes and the cookie tetek was nice. :)

then to Syaiful's house. woah! bnyk gle k makanan. his mum cooked laksa, than there was mee rebus, then there was samosa and lastly, roti sardine. Eypul, mak kau masak sedap ok.

shafiq's house was next. the journey to his home is super troublesome ok. haiyo. but tkpe lah. hari raya kn. so his maid cooked. i dont know what it is so i named it myself. Minced meat curry. had it with two slices of bread and then da. tnkg hindustan dkejap. touched up a lil cause it rained and there was no shelter.

Ashraf' house at Woodlands. it was already abt 7. mcm da lmbt gitu kn. he played Bohsia for our entertainment and his mum served us Mee Hoon Goreng and rojak. wow! power sia i tell you. the nicest Mee Hoon Goreng i ever tasted.

next up, Diyanah's.

her house is super lawa ok. so cosy and warm and many many more. haha. so her ibu cooked Chicken curry and so i had them with bread instead of rice sbab perot da kenyang gle. i think, we spent more time at her place then the rest. is it?

after Diy's, Wani's at Sembawang. Wahlau. yesterday was like a day to gain weight sia. Mak Wani masak Nasi Ayam and noodle. so i ate the noodle. i think uh, i didnt consume any rice at all. chey consume sia nina.

lastly, Rimah's house at Pioneer. Supposedly, we were to go to Aqilah's and Risa's but there werent enough timlast home rumah Rimah,. Finally! the noodle i've been waiting for the whole day. Mee Hoon Goreng Putih aka Seafood mee hoon. aha. power ok. the ayam pon sedap.

we enjoyed the day. but thanks to unreliable source (soory), we missed our last train home. so me, apan, eypul and halis took the last bus 30 to bedok. i alighted at Eunos and took the train. tiring ok.

AND! we are going out again tomorrow. best or what. ok da. bye!

Amber Lounge rocks just like F1!

2009-10-02T20:10:00.003+08:00

amber lounge was a blast. even though we were not allowed to party like the guests but we still had fun serving naughty guests and also some demanding ones.

the first night, me, diy and rimah was allocated at the same area which made me so happy cause i was so nervous.

but it turned out fun and happening. the guests on the first night was the most hip ones cause they were a bunch of crazy Caucassians. most of the time, they self service with the drinks. only some required us to go to the bar and get drinks for them.

it was hillarious when some of them called us to dance with them, drink with them and many more. some of us were kissed, carried like a baby and... hmm hmm.

the best part was when we get tips for our service. supposed to share among 5 but that $50 were shared among me, Diy and Rimah.

hectic but crazy night. the continuos music from11pm to 6am. shiok!

to these people " i love you" means nothing cause i heard that all the time throughout the night.

second night was abit boring cause i was put away from the girls but near the entrance so its like i can see who ever comes in. my group of guests were family i guess. thank god the father was so kind. haha. one of the guy actually wanted to bring me some where cause i cant hear him properly it was damn loud. so, i followed him and sent him to the main entrance and ZAP! i went back to do my job.

was very tiring but fun, huh? girls?

back street boys paitao uh. ckp nk dtg in the end both nights, i didnt see a sight of them.

girls, i asked Berry when we are our pay and he says probably on the 7th. sabar je k?

ok till here. still havent received pictures from some of my girlfriends.

see you guys tomorrow HA for our Raya outing.

Hanan and Dian. i'll try to make it for your open house k darlas?

gtg.

F1!

2009-09-24T20:03:00.003+08:00

i know my updates are useless cause they happened like one week ago kinda thing.

anw, went for the F1 briefing thingy at Conrad Hotel. and good news is we, the gorgeous HA girls and some other i dont know who, got the job!

well, we, the pretty ones were selected to work @ Amber Lounge, which is like a club. we'll be serving the DRIVERS, VIP and many other. drivers like Mr Hamilton, Schumacer, and i dont know who else. haha probably serving Beyonce Knowles and Nicole as well. wohoo!! haha.

the working shift is like, 6pm to 6am, 7pm, 7 am and so on. a lil of description on the club, cause we went in there for training

jst now. it gonna be dark and smoky and cold. we'll be given a mini torchlight to see the way. hope i wont spill any drinks. according to Dalland and Berry, it wont be that tough but i think it gonna be tough handling demanding customers. haha. the good thing about the job is! $8/hr ,meal provided, transport provided. what i heard just now was, they'll call a taxi to fetch us from the lobby! gerek kn? so gonna shop with thta $$$$. ok tu je. cant wait for tomorrow's training and then the hands on bibeh!

no update on Raya BECAUSE IT WAS PRETTY BORING! family outing = BORING! cant wait for the outing on the 3rd October with ITE friends. anw, SELAMAT BELATED HARI RAYA everyone. halakan makan mium and ampunkan dosa!

2009-09-18T14:04:00.002+08:00

someone is going into my burnbook! pegi jahanam dgn kau manusia!

2009-09-17T13:27:00.003+08:00

"you robbed what belongs to me. "

2009-09-14T13:07:00.005+08:00

so the reason for my blogging today is because im super bored. also due to the improper entries. i feel so disorganized. my blog has been dull recently. also because, nabila Jalil, my plastic ,prompt me to update my blog.

holiday started @ 1330 on Monday after the BEV examination. hope i do pretty well

yeah. my classmates, we just couldnt wait to step out of the college building. and we almost forgotten to plan the Hari Raya outung cause holiday will last till the 3rd week of Raya. awesome

and then thanks to Nabila Jalil who iniated the mass messaging regarding the Raya outing. thanks sweetie. hehe :)

so last friday, on the 4th, went to break fast with lovely classmates. Namely, Nur Emilinah bte Rashid, Noor Diyanah bte Mohd Noor, Siti Narimah bte Yapah, Nurisa bte Adanan, Ahmad Haikal bin Ahmad Firdaus, Hans Taufiq Wesseling, Muhd Zafran bin Zulkifli, Nurul Nabila bte Jalil, Hazwani bte Hamzah and myself.

after buka, we went round Geylang to search for y Raya outfit with help from Narimah. Thanks alot.! Sayang kau. there's alot of nice outfit. idk which to choose. feel like buying all of it. haha.after all the photo taking session (as always) an impromptu karaoke session @ Grandlink. Jiwang, Dangdut, Rock and all. Rimah, your voice power ok. i like! haha.

what else can i say? awesome and all other words in tha dictionary. kecoh-rable! one by on eleft the room so ended up, me, apan, rimah risa and nabila went out of the building. and then Zafran wanted to recommend me to one of the Ramly Burger stall. so we bought one beef burger each then rushed to my bus stop cause its gonna be the last bus for me.

so Zafran, my saviour, accompanied me till my bus arrived. thanks! :) my plastics really made my day!

on sunday. went out with Matno to watched movie, The Time Traveller's Wife. pretty good movie. after that went to eat @ Plaza Singapura. obviously we were not fasting. the reason is obvious. then trained down to geylang to show him the outfits im interested in. but still, not chosen any yet.

after that, we went 'buka'. mcm paham la kan. haha. and of all people.we had to bump into Firman and wife again. so Matno went asking me, "Everytime we go out, comfirm saw Firman. why eh?" haha so my answer was, how should i know right. haha so before we bus-ed home, bought kebab for ibu and mummy, takoyaki for himself and nothing for me cause my gastric was attacking so badly. :)

thanks for the day syg.

on Friday, the 11th, buka @ Geylang again with my Secondary school friends, Eliza, Khatijah, Fazlina, Nisa, Riduan and Azfar. we orderes this package which cost us 50 bucks which, was not satisfactory to Riduan. haha and the place was called Hazwani Food Junction. (wah diam diam kau da bukak kdi eh Wani. )

after that i showed Eliza the outfit i wanted to buy. she was so happy to know that we are actually wearing the same baju this year only that hers is Purple and mine's green. haha. went to jalan jalan and bought food to munch. it was extremely hot ok. tak boleh tahan. and then we went to sit at the back of Joo Chiat to enjoy the food.

we bought like dendeng, otak-otak, wadeh, cempedak goreng and i cant remember what. aha as usual ade photo taking. we are the models kn.

some funny shit happened. as always. then............. we sat at Paya Lebar there. you know under the track? haiya nevermind la. talked talked take pictures.. uh.. yeah. alot to tell.

when finally going home, i decided to take the train cause it was 11 already. but then fazlina insisted that i take the bus with her and nisa. but i wanted to take the train with eliza, azfar and riduan. standing so close to eliza, and very far from fazlina, they were telling me what to take. at one end, fazlina was shouting for me to take the bus while eliza, tanding right beside me, were putting words into my ear. not being able to hear properly, i shouted "DIAM LA"

i didnt know it was very loud when i realised everyone was looking at me. and KAt was like, "kiwak, kuat pe kau pekik. satu Geylang boleh dengar" haha. funny la. i didnt know i shouted that loud eh. haha. sorry za. really you all should see their expression.

ok ok. da penat sia aku type. anw Rimah, i bought that outfit from Yasmin. pretty! and i saw Tasha when at Geylang with Ibu. haha vogue sia dektu.

2009-09-02T08:40:00.002+08:00

i need a new hairstyle for raya. pls.. anyone give me an idea.

2009-08-28T11:46:00.002+08:00

busy. photos do the talking.

2009-08-27T12:58:00.001+08:00

"kau meninggalkan ku tanpa perasaan

hingga ku jatuhkan airmata.."

stronger.

2009-08-25T12:09:00.002+08:00

i was gasping for air but he just didnt care. i was struggling to breathe but he still continues. he hurt my wrist, i told him to stop but he still went on. i surrendered. and im disappointed in myself. i dont know why i should..

we've been quarelling alot this week. i dont know why this matter keep becoming an issue. is it wrong for me to get jealous? i refuse to give in. i just need an answer to that simple question i asked this morning.

2009-08-23T20:30:00.000+08:00

blogger is being an idiot. so i cant post pictures. fuck you la. dont worry my blog is not dead yet.
oh my, had a sudden thought of ruru baby. *blushing*

2009-08-17T15:31:00.000+08:00

FATIN YOU BROKE MY HEART MORE THAN THE GUYS DID! PLS HEAL MY HEART!

pretty-fulllllll

2009-08-17T14:44:00.008+08:00

wednesday:

went bugis to watch movie with matno. bought new bag, new top, new bangles, new belt.

went sheesha with classmates. and of all places why must he be working there? fuck.

thursday:

didnt go to school cause was lazy.

bought new heels, new ring, new perfume and new compact powder.

friday:

grooming session @ ITE Simei. the hair and the make ups, it was disappointing.

saturday:

flag day @ Tangs. went shopping instead of collecting donation.

took part in GAP Photo taking contest. prize will be a 2 ticket to New York. Who wouldnt want, right?

Went karaoke with Apan and Shafiq and his friends @ Grandlink Square. (apan, aku boleh la nyanyi sikit sikit.

Stay over @ Kat's place cause some shit happened at home. go ____ your own pussy

played Fortune Teller ..(oh baby you really love me, dont you.)

Sunday:

did some catching up with Faz and Eliza. was a long day. but happy. took lotsa pics. but i look like S**t most of the time. (more on fb soon)

AWESOME!!

ion's toilet is so pretty-ful

marina barrage backdrop

perfect

2009-08-11T12:18:00.009+08:00

"she says: but its so fucked up cause out of everyone he treats me the nicest, NICEST EH. and sorry to bring this up uh but its like you and ____ , wasnt it just perfect? my god. i feel like throwing up "

you know it very well. in fact we know it very well who they are. yes they are kind people. but sometimes they can be really mean. i've experienced it. just like how you are right now. true, all seem so perfect, so sweet, so nice ,so memorable.

but you know, you were once in a situation where its difficult for you to comfort me when he shot me in the head with the fact that we were never together. no history no so what ever. and i dont want to be in that situation when i cant find a way to give the comfort you need after a heartbreak.

if a day can break me into pieces, what about you? you've build that protection wall for so long, if i remember. and suddenly he came, crushing down the wall you've been possessively protecting.

if it took me months to get it over with, what about you? im not being emotional or what here. but its the truth, right? all of you know it well. it wasn't easy. it was tough. now, though i've moved on, hearing his name will open up the wound.

darla, i dont want you to be in that situation. come on, you are a jovial, loving, and violent at times. dont make this issue a problem to you. :) not to show off or just for the sake of saying, but this was what i feel when you open up to me yesterday. i felt angry, sad, worried and all mixed feelings.

but if you feel that he's a good guy and wont hurt you then stop being confused, ok?

we love you, pussy. :) :)

heh?

2009-08-10T20:25:00.000+08:00

i got nothing to say eventhough there's alot to share. just.. i think everything's great.
anw, HAPPY 44th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!i love you. the fireworks was beautiful.
alright, im updating the burn book. toodles. :)

2009-08-04T12:09:00.002+08:00

"the day you'll realize your mistakes is when everybody, including your loved ones, leave you struggling behind"

now take that into consideration, lady. before its too late.

something i want to share

2009-08-03T14:56:00.004+08:00

ok so basically what did i do during the weekends?

uh.. on saturday i went to nenek's place to you know just for the fun of it. haha.

and oh didnt go sheesha that friday.

yeah thought of sleeping over but her place was 'overcrowded' so instead i went to my another cousin's place nearby and spent the night there.

on sunday, went to meet matno at toa payoh as in fetched him from work. so actually he have this uncle friend who drive a lorry. he's kinda funny though. so we went to sin ming there to repair his side mirror. but becuase it was a sunday, we have to search for shops which were open.

finally there was. and then wanted to go eat but that uncle gotta go to the airport to send his brother off to hong kong. you know how long it took us just to find a car park to park the lorry? haha dont care la cause time spent with matno was great. haha.

so in the end, we went to eat at Popeyes at the airport. not that delicious though but ok la. and then me and matno went to take the train to Tanah Merah and then took the bus 31. haha. he just wanted to spent more time you know. haha. so like that la.

and, yes, lunch break just now, Apan, Lin, Diy, Amirah, Wani, Ashraf, Aqilah, Nabila, Syaiful, Prabhu, Rimah, Fifah and myself went to Mr Prata to eat. its just nearby our school. best la. but i think i regret ordering the Mee Kuah. haha. not full filling la.

and i dont know why the others are starting to blog about her. pls behave to gain good name, dear. haha.

?????

2009-07-31T19:13:00.001+08:00

i dont know what i've been thinking this few days. sometimes i dont know why im at a certain location. just now, i went to macdonald's with my bag packed with all i needed. had cornetto chocolate mcflurry. and then i headed to the bus stop. not knowing what i was doing there in the first place. dressed as though im going to nearby shop, i hailed the bus number 31 and here i am at Toa Payoh library not knowing the exact reason of my visit here. thank god i brought my laptop along. and so here i am blogging about this thing im uncertain of. im going crazy i guess. i feel as though everyone is looking at me. dress in this way. i know its not like as if they know where i was from. but im just being paranoid.

school was a bit boring cause most of the guys were not in class as they had some futsal tournament outside school. the only guys who were in class were Syaiful and Prabhu. nevertheless, we still had fun. i mean the girls will always have something to say. yeah. never a day its a boring a day. i dont know how many times i've said it but i just cant stop saying it. I LOVE MY CLASS ALOT. we is smart people. (quoted from Eliza Hamizah) haha.

and i almost forgot to bring my phone home cause i charged it in class and forgetting to unplugged it from the socket. oh my cant imagine if i totally forget about it.. so yeah.

i hate it wheb blogger behave this way. come on. and when am i getting my $800 cheque baby?

greeeeeeeeeeeeeeen

2009-07-30T12:43:00.004+08:00

love has been okay. everything is going on well. but what are relationship without problems, am i right? all you need is to know is how to handle the situation and not to let your emotions take over the situation. never rely on your emotions when you are down with problems cause it will only make things worst.

love, you may not be as hot as what i dreamt of, but you definitely have what it takes to win my heart. thank you for everything.

now, home? pls somebody take me away from that place i call hell? pls la. i need some freedom in the house. i need my own space. i need my privacy. just pls, somebody...

mum, i know that im now the only daughter you rely on after kakak get married. but you should understand that i have my own things to do too. i have my own problems. yes i know, you might be thinking that working is tiring. i cant deny that but what makes you think schooling isnt tiring. my brain have to work all the time. the journey to school and back home takes up most of my energy. so pls, brother is big enough to take care of himself. its not as though i've never done my part as a sister, but ironing just a uniform wont make him lose his hands, right?

it really hurt when you say that im being irresponsible.

school? it has always been fun. cant say its not. thank god i put up the cloth for the notice board already. so classmates tool picture with it as the background. haha.

the tak perlu face of mine. haha

moving on..

2009-07-28T12:14:00.002+08:00

the dream, it was like a 'move on' wake up call for me. like seriously. i dreamt that he was getting married that day and so there i was at his wedding, hoping that he will call it off. but.. no. the solemnisation ceremony still go on. right that minute i was force to tell myself to start moving on cause he probably and surely wont leave his wife behind, right?

and then i was woken up by something i dont know what. but when i woke up, i told myself,
"Nina, you should really move on"

So here i am. telling the whole world (no, more to those who knows me and that past), that i've move on. really i have.
never question me again. cause i realised, he caused more pain than gain.

just one request im asking for, Mr Past, pls just dont come back again. because you know, my weakness is you.

sweet moments.

2009-07-26T20:16:00.000+08:00

i love life right now. everything seem so fine.
and you, you make me comfortable when with you.
and you, you are worth that second chance, unlike the others
they were a waste of time.

i dont have to worry whether your friends dislike me or whether my friends dislike you
because we are the one going through everything.

p/s: i love you.

boredom

2009-07-24T17:39:00.004+08:00

school has been a fucker these days. it was a total waste of money going to school today cause firstly, ms lim is on mc again. so 1 hour of free period which we use wisely. haha since Shabrina bought a new sexayeee laptop, haha she needed to download some software. so yeah. then half an hour break. since i have to collect pictures from the class, yeah so i did. but only a few hand in. like 5? -.- .
okay, and then BEV, Mr Alan did not teach anything so another 2 hour of free period. class was supposed to end at 1130 but ended up we were dismissed at 1030? another -.- . buang ezlink aku jer.

so right now, im actually @ YCKCC watching Kat having a dance practice. really bored man. anyway, going off @ 1830 to sheesha with Apan<,Dan, Khai and Dan Ramli. you know its like a every friday routine to sheesha. boleh mati sia aku mcm ni. uh uh bibi aku tngh ckp psl skrng. boring siolxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxz.. k da. see you later @ bagdhad st.

2009-07-23T12:46:00.001+08:00

"really blessed to have you" that's what he said.

thank you.

sorry bear with me.

2009-07-20T18:33:00.004+08:00

this week has been the most hectic week ever. and im sure this is the longest post ever cause Dan said my posts are all short unlike Apan's. haha.

so start off with monday, 13th july, school was slack as Ms Lim was on one week mc. can you imagine? then OFA lesson was cancelled. i dont know for what reason. school ws slack doesnt mean project have to stop going on. so after that went to Lin's place with Shabrina to complete Lifeskills project as we were supposed to present the next day. went home quite late that night. Lin, Shabrina and myself, laughed our ass out, screamed and screeched when we finally get the project done. like finally!

Tuesday, presentation day. eventually, lesson was cancelled. so its like -.- .. dont know why but mdm saadiah said we will be presenting the next day. waste my time je stay up to do the script. but nevermind. then BEV was cancelled also as Mr Alan was not in school. happy happy. so tuesday i actually went to LIn's place again cause i just felt like not going home early.

Wednesday, finally we presented. i was slightly nervous. but overall i think my group did quite well. and the slides went nicely. i love it. thanks to Lin, Shabrina, Tania, Prabhu and myself who cracked our brain on how to make the slides look presentable. and eventually, our hardwork pays off when mdm saadiah announced that our project is selected and therefore we actually have to present it in the auditorium. i dont know when. which means alot of work to be done again. so i really seek your cooperation MEMBERS!

Thursday the best day ever cause SW was fun! we played Captain's Ball. when it comes to screaming for balls, the girls in my class will be the winner. haha. so much of a captain's ball. i think it was more like a Rugby game. haha. Violence is the rule in the class. lol. ape je nina.

Care and assembly lesson was cancelled, and again, we were released early. as for me and lin, we had to like go to FTPSS to show my Mr Effendy our proposal as the project we are doing are collaborating with FTPSS. so again, many things we have to add in the proposal before showing it to FTP principal. oh hell, proposal and proposal. one for FTP and one for Mdm Saadiah. can die uh. so yeah we were late and Mr Effendy was rushing home to fetch his daughter. Sorry Cikgu, saya lambat. oh my i miss saying that.

and Cikgu have a piece of advise for lin.

he asked, " da brape lame awk kenal si nina ni?"

lin, " sejak skola bukak, 13th april."

cikgu, " nasihat saya, awk tinggal kn die"

lol. ape je cikgu. always teasing me. but really, he's like the best teacher ever sia. so he needs my help for some presentation for FTP. see, how useful i am. haha da nina cukop.

Friday? uhmm.. school was ok. watched Wolverine in class as Ms LIm was still not in school. BEV, as usual, blajar maner yg patot je.

in the evening, like you dont know like that, got sheesha session with Dan, Apan and Khai la. so unfortunately, Apan and Khai were late. therefore me and Dan headed off to Baghdad St first. fuck know. that day dont know why they need to check like IC. ape saje je. buut then i still managed to sheesha la.

Saturday, i went to fetch Matno from work. and then he accompanied me to eat. so i complained to him about what happened to me in school. and all he could say was "Sabar la you" i really think he dont comment so much. bgs bgs dosa pon kurang. i like. should learn from him. after that we got nowhere to go, so as i brought my laptop along, we decided to settle down at the library to watch movie. i like. haha.

hour later we headed to Kiddy Palace as i had to get some stuff. then we took 31 and went home. haha. nk jumpe lg tk?

Sunday, wake up early in the morning to meet Lin at Bedok because of Dikir Com.

Dikir Barat has always been fun. i like, groups like, Neng Nyno, Kelana Purba, CDM(but they didnt perfrom cause they were the organizer) Andika Kencana, Durba Dua and last but least, Wahana DEksu. Good job people. congrats for qualifying to the finals.

over there, met Kat. i miss her so much!. as usual ade je bende nk ckp. she's the best man. she bought my very very belated birthday present. thanks babe. Love you a lot. then yeah went home.

did my proposal for mdm saadiah. slept at like 2 cause the submission date was today.

BUT, as i was damn exhausted from all the activities, i didnt go to school today and im still working on the proposal.

ok, thats all. enjoy.

omg.

2009-07-19T22:27:00.001+08:00

telling him a no is hurting. but if i tell him a
yes, then im not ready to commit. boy, can we just stay this way? i need some
advise besties.

random-ness

2009-07-16T12:42:00.002+08:00

The way to gain a good reputation, is to endeavor to be what you desire to appear.
- Socrates

im super bored. not actually. feeling super minah today. (but im not) like for some reason.
beauty comes from the inside. and sexy is not about revealing. it comes from your mind and then your heart. to compete is to challenge yourself with others, which comes with a good intention. but if your intention is bad, and then everything turns black. (wtf are you talking nina?)
mcm mak aku kate, muke kalau tk lawa, perangai biar baik.

i am more than you think i am.

2009-07-14T12:08:00.004+08:00

well, if my presence seems to be a threat to you, then im loving it. cause it just goes to show that im better. not trying to be snobby here but the fact is im better than you. and i'll make sure i always be. frankly speaking, you disgust me more than any other girl whom i ever know. if you think you are a bitch, then im bitchier. if you want to try me, come right up to my face. its all about facing the fact that im better and should i say, prettier than you? oopps sorry.

sometimes i get really bitchy, you wouldnt want to see. if its some personal matter that makes you hate me, come on la, grow up eh pls.
immature. i love it when i know who my enemy is.

vivo-city

2009-07-13T16:28:00.007+08:00

when its us, its always full of laughters. azfar especially.
uh this guy below.

he's not a matrep, but he looks like one. haha sorry bf. the tk perlu face.

uh....... oh yes! finally went out with Eliza, Faz, Irfan, Rid,Azfar and Ramanan. went to watch Obsessed with them then there's like Q & A session with Ram cause he's now studying in Malaysia. haha. alah lazy to story la. the pictures explain it all.very funny la. i love it!

naughty naughty nina.

2009-07-09T12:08:00.004+08:00

school is fun. i mean its always fun. never a day everything's fucked up. thanks to awesome classmates like Shabrina, Lin, Amirah, Diyanah, Taufiq, Apan, Shafiq and some other. haha. Oh! Syuhada also. i realised that after the term break ends, im getting naughtier and naughtier than before. haha. always up to something. And Lin, she just cant find a reason to stop laughing. haha i mean unless when she's sleeping in the train la. lol.
although alot of assignments and project not done and we still like need to stay back almost like everyday to finish our project asap., we still have fun. always. like i said before, will be looking forward for school everyday.

and you, sorry i couldnt accompany you to ECP yesterday due to some last minute project meeting. but dont worry i'll make it up to you some other time aite. there's always time for you baby. its a matter of whether you can wait or not? can you? haha.

ok im so super hyper happy since BEV class just now. hahaa
oh i got A for my test. Top 4 in class yeah for that module. im not proud ok. i mean yes im proud but not in the wrong way. im not being arrogant just because of my result. just that its UNBELIEVABLE. Lin, if you say that to me again, i'll punch you hard next time. haha. ok ok love love you you all all.

jniovfhiughfu9 jfkocvm

2009-07-08T09:39:00.001+08:00

im going on a movie date this friday and i dont know what to watch. oh pls anybody?!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-07T12:37:00.001+08:00

i dont know what to say. just that i pulled Lin's hair to lessen her headache but the whole thing actually came off. im so sorry. nasib tk botak teros. hehe. nanti aku pay for your hair extension eh. im so sorry.

pleasseeeeeeeeeeeeee

2009-07-03T22:43:00.002+08:00

is my brain not functioning well? why am i always like this? am i not contented?
why do i have to be paranoid? yes i want you but on the other hand, i want to be someone else's. does that make sense?
please knock some sense into me.

i've been waiting for you all this while. and when you're standing right before me, i just could sense the difference.
you dont seem to be the one i know those past 16months. is it me or is it you?
its difficult fro me to come to understand because everthing is happening to fast.
i admit i like someone else. but that doesnt mean i dont want to be with you.
if only that guy came after im with you, everything would be a different thing.
pls dont leave me hanging.

p/s: yoga class was fun. i want more. :)

back tracking

2009-07-01T18:30:00.003+08:00

im sick right now. headache,runny nose, cough,sore throat and tears just keep falling for i dont know what reason. get well soon, Nina. and thanks Lin for accompanying me to the clinic despite the fact that you are sick as well. its been a while since i last touched my laptop, and when i log in to blogger and when i checked my friends blog, all i see is Michael Jackson's face. i hope its not too late for me to say,"Rest in peace MJ". i love the song Heal the World.

Back tracking my previous posts, i realise that alot have change. many come and go.
the wounded has healed. the missing ones has returned. alot of mishaps i endured. problems i managed to went through.
but some still left hanging. i have no power to control. all i can do is wait and see if miracle happens.
those who left just refuse to return. those who hurt just refuse to admit and continue hurting.

but i cant deny that some left with good memories. those everlasting laughter. those tear that rolled on a happy occasion. those screamings that make our relationship stronger. i love you all.

eliza, faz, hanan, kat, riduan, azfar, you guys are more than i could ask for. <3

who am i again?

2009-06-25T20:02:00.002+08:00

nothing can explain my situation. work load work load! nina is not programming well.

whats a man to do.

2009-06-24T01:49:00.012+08:00

Dan made me like this song.

i want him please?

2009-06-23T12:17:00.001+08:00

oh hell! brad pitt is too hot. can i marry someone like him pls?

2009-06-23T11:33:00.004+08:00

been sleeping alot yesterday. been sleeping late all night. and now im having headache like headache! my head feel so heavy. woke up at 0830 in the morning to go polyclinic again. having group meeting at Raffles later at 2. and i were to go to sleep, i swear i wont be able to wake up. hell no!
was too sleepy that i dint feel the nurse accidentally cut my skin. suddenly there was blood. but there was still no reaction. holidays! pls go away soon.

oh! had a nice chat with besties till 2 the other night. miss them alot. cant wait for saturday to come. i cant wait to meet you guys!

2009-06-21T03:53:00.002+08:00

currently at MacDonalds now. sorry boy im not interested to know you. not at all interested. fuck off! damn pissed with your irritating voice.

idk

2009-06-20T20:03:00.003+08:00

went to change my dressing early in the morning at Toa Payoh polyclinic cause its the nearest to my current home. hahah. have to wake up very early today. so yeah its like taking bus 238 to school everyday, back then. only that this morning alighted one stop after. hmm. secondary school seems to be the best part of life.

anyways, cancelled my going out to sheesha with Apan, Taufiq, Diy and all yesterday because the pain was eating me up.

so tadi biler pegi polyclinic, when the nurse took out the bandage, i saw this blue thingy at the side of my toe. i thought it was some blue lotion the surgeon applied but NO! it wasnt. took a look closer only to found out that that are actually stitches. 4 STITCHES! i didnt even know that they gonna stich my toe. damn it!

after poly thought of eating with Azfar and Nisa at FNS but they were not up yet. so there i was, eating Fried Kway Teow all by myself because i was damn hungry. ok da lah. penat uh.

p/s: im counting the days. 18 more days to go and im meeting my skinny sweetheart. i miss you alot!

oh! had a sudden craving for Sugarcane back then at Negeri Sembilan.

term break activities

2009-06-19T13:47:00.004+08:00

this week is the most hectic week ever i think. wait let me start off with last week, on thursday, went to Shafiq's place to get the bbq stuffs but ended up waiting outside cause he forgot to bring his keys and no one was home. but managed to in the end.

on friday tk jadi pegi rumah Taufiq cause he went out with Wan Xin. so Apan, Khai, Dan and me went to Arab Street to sheesha. it was hell fun ok. before that went with them to Tong Sen Restaurant or whatever it is at Bugis. went off from Sufi i think if i heard them right, at around 2330hr. thats where the searching of bus stops and trains started cause the 4 of us didnt want to miss the last bus and train.

oh but in the morning before term break on the friday itself, class was fun because like really fun la. ms lim showed pictures and videos and all. then there was like a voting for the most helpful, sensible, participative and friendliest. Congrats to all winners. haha.

on Monday went to buy some leftover items that i didnt manage to buy. blah blah blah. seriously i forgot what happened actually. my memory is getting weaker.

class pit was fun but i really didnt like it when they tried to give the cats to me. i wasnt kidding ok. if i really ainted that day idk what you guys will do. but pls uh, next time jgn. aku tk boleh. so basically, spent most of my time there entertaining Dan and Khai when Apan was busy. so yeah.

theres more but malas uh. blm edit.

so yeah at arnd six in the morning, me, apan, kat, wan xin, taufiq, nabilah, haikal, dan and khai went to Taufiq;s place to have a good sleep. haha. as you know everytime at taufiq's place = fun. hha

went off t about 6 in the afternoon after watching Rush hour 3. some people just have difficulty in sleeping due to the cold temperature. haha. kidding kidding.

and finally, yesterday went for my nail avulsion op. i got 4 jab. like seriosly sia. thank god i felt numb after that, that i didnt even realise the operation has started until i heard the surgeon asking for KNIFES as the scissors are not working. haha. sometimes it felt ticklish that i wanted to laugh but i tahan cause im afraid if i moved the surgeon will cut the wrong part. haha

so now, i swear the bandage is damn thick and big and it look as though my mum has cursed me. haha. how am i supposed to go out with Taufiq and all to sheesha with this kind of toe?

hell big kan?

2009-06-18T16:29:00.000+08:00

aku rindu kamu, say.

kisses!

2009-06-11T12:21:00.004+08:00

didnt go for photoshoot with eliza and faz that tuesday. because i had some stupid cramps. sorry eliza for not replying to your msg. my phone now in a survivor status. so yeah. naw, nice shots you all took. jealous akak. haha :)

school break is coming soon. tomorrow last day of school term. shiok kape.
really cant wait for the bbq pit. excited or what. haha. alot of stuffs needs to be prepared. all that basic bbq equipment. going to Shafiq;s place to collect the stuufs later. maybe. then going to Taufiq's place tomorrow. maybe. not comfirm yet. but i dont know why im in a super happy mood today. like super super happy.

and and! wohoo! finally getting my laptop next week on Tuesday. kalau tk deliver jugak, i relly dont know what to say sey. dont cheat my feelings ok, fujitsu. i've had enough. hehehehe.

i miss eliza loads!
i miss faz dozens!
i miss kat tonnes!
i miss hanan alot!
i miss nisa to the extreme!

whwn are we meeting like really meeting and talking non-stop.
and faz! now im staying near boon keng mrt. we can like meet at the MacDonalds or what. hehe. :)

i miss you

2009-06-08T15:00:00.002+08:00

im excited to meet up with you again but on the other hand i dont know where we will be going next. how do i set my words right? i want to be in a relationship but i dont want to be in a relationship.

2009-06-08T14:34:00.002+08:00

last sat, as you guys know, its was the Singapore Idol audition. so, Taufiq and I actually accompanied Zafran to the audition with his friends, Dan, Dan Ramli, Khai and Ahmad. At about twelve in the morning we headed to Starbucks to kill time. but because we were slightly sleepy, decided to go over to Taufiq's place.
6 in the morning, queued up and all and unfortunately, we could not accompany Zaf for the registration so, me, Khai and Dan, headed off to PS to have breakfast.
talked some crap and all. i swear the laughing was endless. hahahaha.
went back to Cathay and then back to PS and then back to Cathay. basically, we were like escorts la. now, i swear im very certain of the route to PS and Cathay already.

So something like that la the story. it'll be too long if i want to type out every single thing that happened. in conclusion, (cheh!)despite all the sleepiness, the fun was a memorable one. hah

p/s: and did i tell you, the california fitness guy said that im fat! nabeh. thanks eh Taufiq for laughing.

wohooo

2009-06-05T12:55:00.000+08:00

GONNA TAKE MY OFA TEST IN A WHILE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

another case of boredom.

2009-06-04T11:59:00.003+08:00

How serious are your feelings for the person you like?
`not so serious

Have you ever met a gay person?
` yes, a hot one. in the train or something.

Do you have a favorite soft drink?
` maybe 100plus

Have you ever INTENTIONALLY made someone jealous?
` of course i have. but for a good reason lah.

Do you watch college sports?
` yes.

What do you think about scene/emo kids?
` dont be emo can?

Do you live close to the person you like?
` nah uh. far!!!!!!!!!!!

Do you flirt with people while in a relationship?
` sometimes when boyfriend gets fucking annoying.

Who was your last phone call that was over an hour with?
` nobody.

Are you listening to any music?
` uh uh. jgn pernah berubah by st12.

What you're excited about right now?
` uhm class BBQ pit. hell yeah i cant wait ti explore Changi Beach. haha

Country or rock?
` pop

Do you have a picture of you kissing someone?
` yes.

Do you think your ex still loves you?
` i've gotta ask. but i know one of them do. :)

What movie never fails to make you cry?
` Qabil Qushry Qabil Igam.

Are you talkative?
` sometimes.

Any plans for tonight?
` tk ada.

Has someone ever told you they loved you and meant it?
` nah i dont think so cause they are flirts.

Suppose you see your crush kissing another person?
` i'll get upset for awhile and then i'll be ok. he may not be serious. haha

What do you think of your number 1 on your featured friends?
` on friendster it'll be my "brother", faris. and yeah i miss him alot.

What is bothering you right now?
` what should i say while emcee-ing next week.

What was the last thingh you ate?
` beancurd soup with rice and 2 ayam emas.

Who is the last person you sent message?
` nizam

Have you ever lost anything down a toilet?
` who hasn't?

Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot ?
` on computer not so but phone msgs, yeah.

Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive-thru?
` fast food place. no licence yet.

Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
` those kids at home.

Do you eat healthy?
` sometimes when i have the mood. i've been eating alot of greasy foods nowadays.

Does your password have to do with a boy?
` no lah.

What's a fact about the last person who had their arms around you?
` he's so hot!

What do you currently hear right now?
` voices of my classmates.

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
` global uniform.

Do you know anyone that smokes?
` yes.

How long does it take you to shower?
` 15-30 minutes every single day. there's no "shower" term in my dictionary.

Are you a jealous person?
` sort of. only toward the ones i really really care for. but sometimes i can take control of the feeling.

pass with flying colours. i hope so

2009-06-03T10:09:00.003+08:00

yay! Business Environment term test has ended! it was freaking easy i tell you. ok lah not so confident but at least a 35/50? can make it not nina? haha. ok im just so happy that my time studying the past two days in MacDonald's alone is worth it. wohoo!

actually cant wait to get over with the operation so i can have photoshoots taken with shoes on! haha. next week is last week of school term; meaning its term break! hehe.
and oh! nothing actually. im just frustrated with things at home. but i wont let it bother me cause i'll mostly spend time outside.
WHEN AM I GOING TO GET MY LAPTOP?

SAMANTHA

2009-06-02T12:51:00.001+08:00

i want to have a photo shoot taken like that! pls. somebody?

dis-organ-iced

2009-06-02T12:16:00.003+08:00

im so pissed off by some things which i should be getting used to by now. its all fucked up. im so mad deep inside that i dont know what to type anymore. its all a mess. when will the misery end?

i need a camera,i need new heels after my operation, i need new bag from Billabobg, i need hoodie, i need new shoe, i need a new phone, i need that skinny jeans, i need that dress. WTF is wrong with that?

i was trapped when i actually had to give an answer. did i say the right thing? all seem so simple. but hey fuck.

im too bored to say that life's boring.
hopefully this weekend plan to go to JB is comfirm. come on lets have a day break!

eliza, hanan, faz, kat, nisa, hope to meet you all soon. my holidays starts only the next two weeks.

she-shying

2009-05-31T01:37:00.005+08:00

well, where shall i start? ok so like i mentioned, going out with friends right? ok first, im currently at Lin's crib and she's sleeping so im just blogging here to share my day.

At 4.38 i reached City Hall MRT just to find out the rest are still making their way when we actually supposed to meet at 4.30. one after the other soon arrived, starting with Zafran, then Taufiq and his girl friend and then Joseph and so on.
so basically, after a few hours of waiting, me, Taufiq, his friend, zafran, lin, rima, joseph, rohaizat, alistair and ashraf head off to Marina Square to meet Shafiq and Risa to bowl but eventually the place was overcrowded so instead we went to eat at the food court. and the Haikal joined in caused he was from kenduri. something happened to joseph so we had to wait a lil while more when all of us actually decided to cancel bowling and head off to Haji Lane i think to sheesha. sempat la amek amek gambar but tk boleh post skrng la cause still not ready.

went sheesha ordered double apple, strawberry and one other flavour which i dont know what. so personally i prefer the double apple flavour. so yeah since it was mt first time, Taufiq and Haikal had to teach me. lol. ordered Flamingo mocktail and shared with Shafiq. while sheesha-ing we also sempat play games with Zafran's ipod touch with lin nd haikal. as usual, rima became our photographer for the day. snap here and there.

kecoh ok the sheesha thingy fall twice and the worker's face eh, sumpah tk perlu.haha
after sheesha, me, taufiq, lin, haikal and zafran headed to Cjimes, initial plan was to watch football on big screen but turned out i dont know what. so lin, zaf and me went off first. went to penin 7-11 to grab some food, dilly dally as we were deciding whether to take the train or bus. eventually took train. talked about some shit in train and so yeah. went separate way and i really needed to shit! haha.

ok oleh tahan pnjang eh post nina hari ni.
will upload the pics soon. ;)

plain boring !

2009-05-29T20:31:00.003+08:00

so basically,didnt go to schoolcause i had a consultation with doctor regarding my problematic toe. so, i have to undergo another operation on the 18th of june. -.-
after that went to Mum's workplace to accompany her to Bandemeer Sec to get my bro's report book. over there, aku konon mcm feeling Taufik Batisah la cause rmi yg pngl namer aku. hehe. only to find out that it was my primary school friends. kecoh ok. so there was Kok Chye,Mei ling if i remeber her name correctly and some other which i dont really recnize.but i was hoping to see Choon Kiat the cute Wushu guy. but didnt cause i have to rush. so yeah.apparntly, all of them are in Sec 5. :)
and then cab down to mum's workplace again cause i really didnt know what to do.
so over there, ended up frying jempot jempot. haha. i was complimented ok? "manis nye jempot jempot ni mcm org yg buat." haha.
then i "sharpened"the knife cause i just feel like cutting and again i ended up cutting vegetables. haha. being a cook for a day isnt at all that bad.

and and im really happy for Eliza that Richard Ramirez replied her letter. wohhooo!!

tommorow planning to go bowling and sheesha with Taufiq they all but he still hasnt got back to me. i doubt i can bowl tomorrow cause i cant possibly put on the shoe, with the condition of my stupid toe!

and! i told mum i need a camera and she agreed to get me one. im not sure when i;ll get them, but i just hope its as soon as possible!

2009-05-28T12:11:00.004+08:00

hello sayang sayang ku, haha.
first of all, credits to Lin for doing the blogskin for me. you are so awesome.

anyway, in class just now, as usual, we had a great time bitching about some people. i mean there were Lin, Diy,Amirah, Nabs and myself. if i should include Taufiq, yes he was there too.
as usual we talked penis. haha. venting our anger and hatred towards certain people who had to make such a prejudice remark, as what Lin said. nobody is perfect ok. so you are nobody to say such things to others.
materialistic? everyone is. you need money no matter what. thats like the basic necessity. if money is not needed, why do some people beg? right? so please eh, tak perlu eh comment comment mcm tu smuer.
Eliza, i think if you know who im talking about, im sure you'll join in to criticise that person sia!

boredom is what im experiencing!

2009-05-27T20:23:00.003+08:00

i dont know why but i just feel like blogging in malay. just bear with me ok. its just that i feel i've not been speaking malay as much as i did before. so i really need to practice more again

so, aku rase mcm penguasaan bahase melayu aku semakin merosot. hehe.

dear classmates,
aku ni orangnye bukan kasar. aku ni lembut dan bersopan santun. kalau tk percaye, tanyelah kawan aku yg bernama Fazlina Ahmad kerana sejak Pri 1 smpi skrng aku berkawan dgn dia. haha.
sorry la kalau aku slalu mcm terkasar kn dlm class. tumbok tumbok krng smuer. but i didnt mean it what. my hand just needed to swing most of the time recently. haha.
seriously, ok, i promise i'll be as lemah lembut as possible from tomorrow onwards. kalau aku terkasar, make sure krng tegor. ok?
haha. so basically yeah. and i suddenly feel like writing malay short stories again.

2009-05-27T09:37:00.003+08:00

i dont know why im not talking to anyone in class right now. sitting infront of my computer, doing my assignments, like finally its over! reading friend;s blog and came across Kat's.

nice pose there babe. i love your style. go photography! haha

but wonder who's the owner of the dress. haha. if i understand correctly, her name is Nina Amiliah right? haha.

anw, good job there babae!

2009-05-21T21:11:00.001+08:00

I NEED A NEW HAIRCUT!

FAT!

2009-05-20T09:35:00.002+08:00

i hate this. i've been eating alot this few days. yesterday, i had a big meal in my school restaurant, pasta, mushroom soup and amber kisses which is a cocktail. after school, dragged Lin to NorthPoint and i had a plate of steamed chicken rice. at nine, had one tub of 800ml chocolate ice cream all by myself. and at 10pm, met mum at coffeeshop and had one big plate of Lamb Chop. Can you imagine? fuck nina. and im feeling hungry right now. i dont know why but this upset me.
maybe the confession led me here!

C-R-I-T-E-R-I-A

2009-05-19T20:24:00.004+08:00

NABILAH..
- tall. fair, muscular,not older than 4 years
- any stable job, romantic, loyal, faithful, honest
-committed, not 24/7, virgin/not virgin, religious
-pure malay, shower with care, attention & love
-non-clubber, dimple, fashionable

HAIKAL..
- well-mannered, soft-spoken, non-smoker, a lil wild
- not a queen control, tall, fair, understated, sentimental
- out-going, long hair, mampat, virgin, religious
- a gig-ous, loyal, towner, fashionable

SHABRINA..
- rich, tall, chinese look-like, handsome
- non-smoker, non-clubber, virgin, smart/clever
- religious, funny, car-owned, loyal, committed
- stable job, romantic, fashionable, skinny
- not sissy as in manly, no pimples, no scars, no acne.(flawless)

NINA..
- tall, tanned, nice hair, skinny, good-looking (hot looking is a bonus)
- a singer, a guitarist, a performer
- caring, loyal, muscular like Samuel Rizal, humorous
- a gigous, hotel manager/pilot, own a vespa
- know basic agama, good fashion sense, must know how to win my mum's heart.(not that difficult) *hint hint*

TAUFIQ..
- funny, out-going, good attitude, not controlling
- sporting, understanding, relasxed, not jealous type
- pretty, good-looking, well-groomed, neat.

happy birthday, kawanku!

2009-05-18T20:50:00.005+08:00

aku sayang kau babe!

it wasnt my birthday, but i was sabo-ed by birthday girl and Fazzy to sing on stage. (thanks alot eh korang) conspiracy!

amek kau!

cam whored week!

2009-05-18T20:25:00.004+08:00

thanks taufiq, for teaching me how to make potatoes! haha

one awesome day with friends.

2009-05-16T11:33:00.004+08:00

everything seems like a waste of time. i dont know what i keep holding on when i know nothing will come out of it. no results,no nothing it all seems perfect when it first started. but as time went by, i feel like there's nothing in common between us. i dont feel the spark its just a plain feeling.
and evertime i fall in like with someone, they seem to be the wrong one. not wrong in a bad way kinda wrong. its either they have fallen for someone else or someone has fallen for him and both seem inseparable. i ust dont understand why.
some say he likes me, but the way he acted, it shows just simply friendship. what am i to do. i dont approach guy, i dont make them fall for me.
i wanna break up, but i dont know how to say that to him. is it better this way? seemed so easy to start.

what to do again?

2009-05-11T15:40:00.000+08:00

as all of you know, yesterday was Mother's Day. well, i didnt go out with Mum cause i had to work. so i just bought her two flower and a chocolate fudge cake. at least there's replacement ok.

so basically, yesterday worked with Irwan, Azri, Yazid and Faris. so yeah. what words can i describe for yesterday's work.
-fatigue
-exhausted
-lethagic
-tired
-punctured
-weak
nah icant think of anything else!

b-o-r-e-d-o-m

2009-05-10T00:23:00.002+08:00

firstly, i want to share that this week makes me feel exhausted. had this similarities and differences lesson in lifeskills class. so i paired up with Haikal. we're both mixed blood. we both like horror movie. we watch hindustan and etc.. so thats basically it lah uh. nothing more. just that i have to prepare something for my show and tell. hopefully i can do it sia. i still have no idea what to share. any idea anyone?

secondly, went for a hotel visit at ParkRoyal hotel. it was an interesting idea. but it was quite unfair that the other two class got to go to Fullerton and a hotel at Sentosa. -.- but nevemind lah uh. the main thing is to know the way a hotel is managed and operated. everything went fine when the girls actually came to a state where all of us couldnt stand the pain of standing for too long with heels on. and i think thats an issue. haha.;)

thirdly, on friday, we pleaded Mr Alan to let us off from lesson because we wanted to watch ITE got talent. haha kecoh babe. so basically, on Friday, i actually rushed home from school to work. it was so last minute la. came to work only to find out that i have to wear something that i actually wont wear outside, haha. but the job was cool because i really like it lah eventhough its fucking tiring. tiring like shit.

so today, i actually didnt go to watch X-men with classmates although i really i want to.
well, im working again tomorrow. 50 bucks per day is not a bad idea you know , considering that the job isnt that difficult at all.
have to be there by 1130, starts at 12 and end at 8. hopefully not like friday, it extended till 11 sia. i really felt like dismantling my joints.heh. ok lah.

2009-05-06T09:16:00.000+08:00

im fucking sleepy right now. since the time i woke up last night, i didnt sleep until it was almost time to get up for school. had second thoughts on whether i should go to school since lessons today end at 1130. and so here i am in school, blogging.

right, so what did i do when i couldnt sleep last night? well, i created new quiz. played alot of games. none interest me as much as this one.

i didnt know the pressure they had was this bad. i know how they felt when people called them a donkey. it hurt so much that it makes you think you incompetent, useless, good for nothing. so well, thats how i felt when i played HELL;S KITCHEN.! it was so interesting. ahah. i worked so hard to get the rank APPRENTICE. im gonna work harder to get a junior chef. haha.

this morning the whether was bad. its not those kind of breezy, mind calming wind. this one, it produces sound and if you stand near the window, you;ll feel dizzy. i swear. scary know. skali windstorm or what. hah. so i dont know why i've been coming late for school lately. and so, yes i was late again but for about 15mins. so came in class together with lin, nabs and haikal. hah.

2009-05-06T00:23:00.000+08:00

great, i just woke up. i dont even realise that i sleep for that long hour and nobody wakes me up. and when i woke up, no one's at home wth? and there's no food. i only had two hotdog bread in the morning sia.

today was fun. i was late for one class which is Lifeskills. its ok la not that bad uh. overall yeah its juat that i forgot to bring thumbsdrive for OFA so i used the time wisely, by playing with the internet. haha.wise kn.

ok i just dont feel like saying anything now. everyhing's fucked up.

2009-05-04T20:09:00.000+08:00

THE H(A)'s. from right, bottom first. ;)

Mr Wesseling, Nina Amiliah & Haikal Mikal. ;)

kpo uh this guy. enter-frame only.

while waiting for the comp lab to open its door! cheh. ;)

see, Shabrina the joyous girl. the one with the teeth showing!(back)

there's supposed to be a "fuck you" above both their heads. so its either my fingers are small or their heads are big. heh! sorry, gentlemen. ;)

2009-05-04T15:25:00.000+08:00

im freaking sleepy right now. -.- wish to go home right now. 45mins to end of school. sigh. slept at 4am just now and woke up and 6. dont know why cannot sleep also. fuck la.
but class was ok. just that have to take temperature 2times daily due to that SWINE flu. like in primary school sia. took lots of pics with classmates and hopefully wani could send it to me asap! pls pls pls!
Shabrina, no point teaching me now cause im really really very sleepy. she's an awesome joyous girl. so lucky to be in the same class as her.

anyway played a trick on Mr Wesseling in BEV class haha. bored la. disturb classmates by sending random msgs. which remind me of the time when me, eliza, faz, chloe, riduan and bernard used to exchange msgs on random topics in Physics class. i so miss the time lah.
when are we going to meet again?????????????!!!!

k gtg. i'll post the pics soon. no usb with me now!

2009-05-03T02:06:00.000+08:00

currently blogging at this hour, 0206 am because im super bored. i cant sleep, msn-ing with whoever i can find online. been looking for a new blogskin but cant seem to find any that arouse my interest. (cheh arouse sia) so i really dont know what to do right now.

currently chatting with haikal mikal (and he still havent tell me why does his friends call him mikal) sigh.

so yesterday actually went to sleep over to aunty's place at bendemeer. i tell you if i stay wih them, i can gain kilos any time soon sia. always have something to laugh about. aha.

then just now Kat, Za and Faz went out together but i didnt join cause saving money for Mother's Day.

miss them alot.

and not forgetting, Hanan and Nisa, ;)

sekarang ni eh actually tngh hujan at the same time lightning tau. aku seram sia, petir.

so. the.bad.luck.

2009-04-30T21:31:00.000+08:00

ok, to start of the day with. i was held up by someone from using the toilet. (fdkjksudsdsjfh) but i still managed to get on train on time. and then, yext from fifah that they are not waiting for me. to add on to the misery of walking to school alone, it rained heavily. BUT thank god i brought an umbrella. ;)

and then, reached class, my shoes were all wet. not all were in class when it was already nine! haha. and and it was Mr Alan's lesson.

the day went on as per normal la. urgh, after thet we had Sports & Wellness. a few laps in the hall, Mr Adi let us played our own game. so i played badminton with joseph(we made good partner) haha with taufiq, nabilah, tania, shabrina the hyper girl. haha

during Care lesson, we did show and tell. suck la and next two week is my turn to show and tell. what the hell am i suppose to share?

about my art? or what? oh oh and coincidently, my birthday is one day before Haikal's.

assembly, ha debate. but not me uh. nabilah, amira, diyanah, joseph and rima.

after school, thought of going home straght but had to go for floorball. tiring ok. im still not sure whether i should contiue. haha. and i missed the photography club meeting yesterday.

and now, im fucking having cramps again lah. haiyo, tomorrow Labour Day dont know want to go where.

2009-04-29T19:56:00.000+08:00

school was okay lah today, had this surprised check by Mr Chairul. because of what? possession of cigarette. haha. funny pe. checked attire all. my fingernails are short what? what ever for he wants me to see him on monday because of my nails? haiyo. leceh uh.

oh oh, just now after school wanted to go eat with classmates only to found out that my money was missing. was so frustrated. so shab lent me 10bucks first. fucking hell sia. then reached home, only to found out that my money was left on the table. haha.

P/S: got to know one guy from FT department. ;)

2009-04-28T20:03:00.000+08:00

yay! went to mum's workplace just now right after school, and she's agreeable in getting me that HOT PINK laptop. fuh! gerek uh. by hook or by crook im so gonna get that laptop sia. even if i have to tie my stomache for months, i will. hehe.

talking about stomache, foods in school are really tasteless. you knoe like foods you'll probably be serve when you're admitted to the hospital. haiyo. whats so difficult about adding some more salt and ajinomoto in the food. huh? later all students bring packed food to school then know. no business, how? haha.

k k. i'll story story again tomorrow maybe? enjoying myselfs with games. haha. anyway just now, had a group discussion during CMB to come out with some jingles for presentation, haha. its fun to be in the same group as Taufiq, Shafiq, Haikal, Lina and Shab. damn funny sia. just couldn't stop laughing. haiya.

GO PINK PANTHER! Grrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-28T12:44:00.000+08:00

god, the internet connection at home really suck. its like playing hide and seek with me. nabeh! currently in classroom. everyone in the class are like using the net instead of doing assignments. haha.

so just now theres like a computer fair and i saw this really nice HOT PINK Fujitsu Notebook. im so gonna get it la. by instalment its like super cheap la. if Mum is not getting it for me, i'll save my own money to pay by instalment. or or ask abg to pay for me. its like his responsibilty what to get me what i need for school. hah.

i had a weird dream last night with someone i really ****. so its kinda awkward to dream of something like that and he's there in my dream. haha. k k. nevermind.

2009-04-24T23:57:00.000+08:00

served detention just now. wasnt that bad actually! spent two hours doing own work in the canteen and another two hours in the staff room with teachers. specifically, MR Leonard, Ms Lim and M ALAN. thanks Lin for accompanying. came up with an idea to share with class during CARE lesson next week. watch out. haha.

so basically, just now went to Woodlands to meet up with eliza. while waiting, bumed into Fatin, Bernard, Oscar, Priya and Nisa. miss all of them la.
after that me and za went to Pizza Hut. i had the Chicken Haven Pasta. real heaven i tell you.
as usual always have something to share. today,we share about new experience in new school with new friends. ;) met for awhile only cause as usual, my feet and legs were in the horrendous state of pain. hmm. and yeah, due to the extreme work-out yesterday.

had SW, 2 rounds round the school, short sprint and all . -.- and and after that, woah shiok! went to gym. something i want to do on a regular basis. ;) burned calories sia and will continue doing it. ;) unfortunately, floorball training is on the same day as SW. imagine! trainings every tuesday and thursday. boleh kurus sia aku! cramps everywhere. butt, thighs.

ok gtg, planning of what to wear tomorrow. going to Simei ITE for some NDP thingy. so yeah, fashion is important. ;)

i love school

2009-04-22T22:30:00.002+08:00

the heels really suck la. i suffered so much today. planned to go T-One with classmates but because my feet really hurts, i went home sia. tsk tsk. thank god it was a short day today. wohoo.
half way towards reaching home, i walked barefooted ok. tk tahan. i didnt care sia people looked at me weirdly or not. ok i dont care, tomorow im just gonna wear my PE shirt sia. atleast if wear PE shirt can wear any shoe. NOT HEELS!!
i love my course, but i dont like the uniform ok. haiyo.

so basically today, nothing much happened. had a nice chat with mr boyfee. :) he's going back to camp today even when he's sick. kesian know! haiyo.
so few hours ago, played badminton with cousins. haha. kecoh siak.

well, im staring at the screen now not knowing what to say anymore. but im sure i have something to say, but what uh?
OH! just now kecoh, OFA class, Lin, Nabelo and Haikal if im not mistaken, came late. so gerek uh, friday at least got people to accompany me on Friday. haha. and and oh! believe it or not, i volunteered myself to be one of the team leaders in Life Skills class. haha. gerek pe?
Prabhu, Shab, Nabelo, Tania and Lin, together we will thrive. haha. ok ok gtg.

2009-04-22T09:35:00.001+08:00

currently in school now. 2hrs of OFA class, finished my assignments so here i am. haha. so now playing games on facebook. get hooked already uh. haha
so apparently i have to serve my detention this friday for 4hrs because i didnt attend 4hrs of lesson yesterday. it so suck ok. and its hanan bby's birthday. wonder if our plan is still on. how?
so my classmates are awesome. they are just funny in their own way.

oh oh! today is my first time wearing full uniform, the heels are killing me sia. im so gonna have blisters la. but instead of wearing a proper court shoe, im wearing the one with straps at the back cause shoe was giving problems early in the morning.
what a day to start!! planning ti go to Tampines One after school since we end at 1130, but idk eh jadi or not.

screwed up

2009-04-21T01:05:00.001+08:00

just finished editing my blog skin, but there seem to be something wrong. haha. im not an IT savvy la, so just dont care about the oganization of my blog k. as long as its readable and understandable, i happy already. haha. lots of stuffs to update. sigh!
and and one more thing, those jiwang words up there, just heck care again ok. not important!

2009-04-20T20:11:00.000+08:00

firstly, eliza told me to update my blog, so yeah im doing this for the sake of doing.
again, a reminder, dont bother about the mariah carey pic. she's not my idol.

the pakcik in the canteen who serves us keep calling me mariah carey and that pissed me off. so he changed and called me diana ross. who the hell is that?

school was ok. as usual, aku ni kn mcm org yg malas nk bebual, so first day classmates semua ingat aku ni unfriendly. haha. but now okay already. in BEV class, the Mr Alan uh, am i invisible to you? everytime i answer your question you never listen! haiyo.

so just now supposingly to end class at 4 but since we didnt have a lab for the 37 of us during OFA class, Ms Deon released us early know at 2.30pm. good uh. if everyday like that i happy sia. then tomorrow our life skills lecturer wont be coming to school, so instead of going to school at 9, we will be coming at10 foe Communicating for Business class. not much different lah one hour, but still extra sleep what.

basically, its fun having classmates like mine. you wont get bored one. people like Taufiq, our Director Events, Joseph, our Director of Classroom, Ashraf, Nabello all. the class never gets sleepy even the course involves a lil of POA.(my ex favourite subj) haha.

Planning an outing for Hanan bby's birthday this Friday. but like no updates like that. how ni hanan? haiyo.

oh oh. just now got CCa fair. know what i signed up for? FLOORBALL and PHOTOGRAPHY CLUB. haha. random right nina? k. gtg. i will update again la ok. busy la will all this orientation and stuffs. ttya.

2009-04-15T20:21:00.000+08:00

sorry i really want to do a long post but doing the skins itself took me half an hour and i have other things to do.
JUST ONE THING! I DONT LIKE MARIAH CAREY> so just ignore the pics. i'll do something about it soon~

2009-04-14T19:35:00.001+08:00

2nd day in school!

the class bonding really work i guess.

went to Macs with fifah, lin, yana, shabrina, taufiq, joseph and shafiq. ;)

2009-04-14T19:25:00.000+08:00

sorry for the delay. im too lazy to update.

but anyways, happy belated birthday, bestie!

but eliza, whats that black thing up and down up and down?

haha

reasons for loving indonesia

2009-03-09T18:48:00.001+08:00

empty. plain. blank

2009-03-09T18:20:00.000+08:00

abang have surrender himself today. cause he awol. then he sms me last night and went like, 'bsk abg nk surrender, kat luar jaga diri baek baek. jage kan ibu dgn azree skali.30 hari je.'
so, managed to meet him on saturday at cousin's party.
sometimes i just hope that all these dont have to happen. if ayah were to be around, things would be different.
kakak wont be married to that guy. abg wont have tattoos all over his body and azree wont be skipping school like he does now.
and me? i wont be suffering with all these.

sometimes i just hope that one fortunate day, either ibu, kakak, abg, azree or families would call me home cause ayah's back.
thinking of that would make me smile. but its all impossible,right? how could a dead person come back? i miss ayah.
i miss him when he put me on his lap to nurse my wound. kiss me every night and say ' you're my best'

sometimes, i woke up, searching the whole house. looking for i dont know what.
then a voice will ask, 'kau cari ape tu?'
only then i'll wake up fully. scratching my head and smile. it was only a dream.
i always dream of ayah. talking to him. but there was no voice. but i know i was talking to him. it seem so real that i went searching for him in the house only to know it was a dream. i just want to sleep for as long as i could if my sleeping meant seeing him. how i wish i could laugh together with him. joke with him. kiss him and hug him tight when i got my PSLE result, my o level result.

i miss the times when he taught me how to cycle, to draw, to spell, to calculate.
and the times when we will sit together sharing a cup of ice cream after he fetched me from school.nursery.
sometimes i wish i could see him standing proud of me. of who i am today in the family.

2009-02-15T20:46:00.000+08:00

i wanna marry a fucking pilot where he'll bring me whenever, wherever he's travelling to!

happy valentine's day!

2009-02-15T20:05:00.000+08:00

azfar! i smack you then know. think cool uh like that pose. haha

what was the joke again?

yesterday was V-day. was extremely bored that i made a last mins plan with azfar and we invited other friends too. unfortunately, hanan bby cant make it. so yeah ate at Nasi Ayam Penyet again. that seem to be our new spot. haha.

after that we went to watched slumdog millionaire.

no, actually wanted to watch The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, then the other end of The Line, we tried others too but all seats are scattered. so in the end, me, faz, za, irfan, azfar and ramanan finally get to seat together at Lido movie to watched that slumdog thingy.

and guess what? i sat beside a hot british guy. not that i care he's a british but he's hot! haha.

lepas tu smuer nk balek cause late night already.

so me and azfar had to accompany ramanan eat at Cineleisure.

After that ape lagi? we go home uh. and azfar seem to have problem with my shoe! smack you then know.

haha k bye!

2009-02-04T16:30:00.000+08:00

MOE: NINA AMILIAH BINTI MOHAMED AKBAR, you are posted to ITE WEST-CLEM HOSPITALITY OP (V41) under JAE 2009
haha. cool huh?

at least some pictures.

2009-02-04T15:54:00.000+08:00

alright, finally. again. went out with some friends. whom i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee alot. miss them alr.

we pegi tngk movie tau.BRIDE'S WAR! i mean me, eliza and FAzlina.

kat? as usual she got her dance thingy. but thank god managed to hang out with her for awhile.

eliza? been meeting quite alot. to find jobs as usual. -.-

fazlina? met her and za the other day to "discuss" about our application results which were (or should i say is) disappointing.

kat? last saw her at my former workplace. that one also tk dpt talk much as i was busy

hanan? oh that princess! i miss her alot. lame tau never meet her. sigh.

to make it short, i miss all of them. -.-

hopefully we can go out together to celebrate faz's b'day. ;)

watsh movie, go cycling? haha. how bout that, eliza dear?

oh! we really want to watch the movie The curious case of Benjamin Buttons.

wohoo!!!!!!!!!

oh! and i cant find a way to share my party pics. haha but will try. die die will try. ;)

alright, see you again. i dont know when is that. anyway, im happy to have someone by my side now. ;0

2009-01-12T19:24:00.000+08:00

alright today we got our result! i was freaking shaking la. shit. i couldnt explain how i felt. so went to meet riduan outside school and went in together with him and all. saw faris, irwan and those, LUTHFI!!!! yeah luthfi was there too.

anyways, i got 26 points which means im going to ite. but well depend. i just submitted my application. cheebye. well eliza faz hanan all eligible for poly. but nevermind maybe i'll cope studying in a slower pace. and the courses that i wanted to take in poly also im eligible for it in ite, so who cares. i'll take the long route.
so, my birthday is coming. this 15th! wohoo!!!!!!!

IM HAVING A PIT FOR MY PARTY> invited quite a number of friends. hmm...
cant wait to see their faces again. fuh! cant wait to check if im shortlisted. cant wait anymore, not schooling. it is so sucky staying at home.
so what else eh? aku ade bnyk bende nk blang tapi lupe plak. haiyo!

that.painful.experience

2008-12-04T12:22:00.000+08:00

hey im back, darling.

alright, that tuesday, after work me and Kat went to our suppose to be our 'enjoying ourselves day after o level' chalet.
but turneed up only about 13 of us who went.
quite disapppointed uh sia. the girls only me,kat and desiree.
the rest like hanan, eliza, chloe, fazlina all cannot go. because of work. -.-
imya.

okay that night, we were shorts of coke. so me and riduan rented a bike and cycle through the night to find some 7-11.
unfortunately, i couldnt balance myself down the slope and YES! i hit the pavement's hump.
seriously sia, i feel as if i lost my virginity. the pain, wow! LIKE I CAN STILL FEEL THE PAIN NOW!
okay and then half way through, the tyre punctured.ARSE!
so riduan dump the bicycle at some bushes. so, yes, i sit at front while he cycle. and the position it suck. my butt pain sia.
like couple like that uh. haha. right, riduan? haha
he couldnt buy the ciggarette so we asked some uncle to buy for us. cheebye lah the 7-11 aunty.
once again, on our way home, i fell on my butt. (duh)
you uh riduan, how to be my bf if you cant save me from falling? lol.
SO I ENDED UP GOING BACK TO THE CHALET WITH BRUISES AND SCAR ON MY LEGS.EEE
and all he can do is laughed or should i say, laugh?
thank god there's only him. embarrasing sia.

okay enough of the falling, went back to chalet
we had some vodka with redbulland coke, then we had it raw. Except azfar. its okay we understand.
light some ciggarette. i tell you i smoked my lungs out sia. only for that night uh. kat also
irfan, you're such a heavy smoker sia. smoking with the filter out. funny is it?
desiree, you really turned red. same colour as your lips.
yun hao, you were really high.

chat chat then me, kat, irfan, yun hao, ramanan, sunder, dennis and riduan went for a walk at the beach
was looking for a bar but it was closed.
so went back to chalet and me? BUUP! i went to sleep. they play cards la, what else.
i heard des vomitted, haiyo!

okay, woke up in the morning, kat was sleeping at the end of my leg, riduan on the adjacent bed and irfan, really was beside me.
same pillow same bed. was too sleepy so we didnt care where we were sleeping. haha

yeap thats all i guess. and then me and Kat went off to work.
after work, i went to ttsh starbucks and lepak with Kat, Fiza, Sheril and Acap.

holla!

2008-11-30T12:12:00.000+08:00

hey its been quite a long time since i blogged. oh my goodness.. alot has happened and i have little time to update now. new pictures, new stuff and like a lot more. but for sure im missing all of lovely friends! and yeah it suck that im still looking for a job. cheebye sia. kay lah gtg. talk again if i have all the time in the world to blog.

love love,
nina

as u-s-u-a-l!

2008-11-04T14:34:00.000+08:00

it suck everyday, every night thinking about you.
thinking about what you're doing there.

okay a new guy came into my life. and coincidently, he's working in the same company as Mr. H and he's also his good friend.
can you imagine? what a small world.
and that guy, nizam, likes me.
so i told him that i cant cause this feeling inside of me are always siding Mr. H no matter how hard i try.
i took the time explaining to nizam that its not as if i didnt try, its just that i failed my attempt a million times.

okay, truth is i've never move on. i know it suck la to still like someone who have already hurt you a multi million time(okay exaggerating)
but i cant help it what.
he;s like a durian. full of thorns on the outside, but deep inside it(not that deep) there's a filling that is so sweet, full of fragrant and aroma.
thats him. that's Mr. H.
Nizam say he would help as much as he could. i dont think its going to work so i just let him be.

yup so i have only 3 more papers, 2 more days and another 5hrs 30mins for o level to end. yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
im living blissfully in my cousins place, without disturbance. a space for me to express everything. my thoughts, my feelings, my imagination.

right! toodles. text me if you miss me. haha .
and yeah watched HSM3 that day. wohoo. it was fun.

Oh My Jaw!

2008-10-10T14:02:00.000+08:00

yes! once again, when was the last time blog-ged? dalah tk kesah lah. so mcm sial, alot has happened and im still feeling stupid, hopeless, angry, revengeful, lethargic, what else? school? its okay cause its just intensive and i just fucking skipped art intensive. you imagine there's art intensive? i dont want to look at her face anymore lah. we still have art paper two know. tsk!

hari raya? yeah it was OKAY. i didnt really enjoy it this year. dont know why also. got alot of pics to upload know but cant find usb cable, so forget it cause i have the pics in my phone.

FUCK! why wouldnt mum believe me what i said? okay i know she's like trap between the devil and the deep blue sea (cheh cheh). but im her daughter sia. biological daughter! she've been living with me , raised me up for 16 only -god -knows- how- horrible years it was and you're hinting you dont trust me. have i ever make up stories? to the extent of playing arnd with my own pride and dignity?

and fucking sister! (you are not my sister in case you dont know) go and mirror yourself and then you can tell me if im the one ungrateful. and your fucking husband, he's not more than just a stupid fucking elephant ass thatis so stupid that he dont even know that the word PSYCHIC exist. omg! how stupid can it be ,bastard. i dont fucking regret swearing bad words at you, saying stuffs abt you. not at all. im fucking satisfied to the core. i wont die not having a fucking 'sister' like you.

In case you are reading this bitch, i have already lodged a report to the authority. i dont fucking care if the police got the proof or not, as long as i know im not wrong and have the great courage to make a statement. you yourself told me he's a fucking steamer and a horny basatrd (oops!) and now when i told all that happened you said im making up stories. wtf! anyway your trust is not fucking important to me. in fact you are not fucking important to me. hahahaha. YOU PEOPLE HAD TRIGGER THE WRONG SECTOR OF MY BRAIN AND HIT THE WRONG WIRE! im not going to keep quiet. at least i have my awesome big family to help me make YOU fucking see the truth. unlike you, who's your family?

im sorry mum i didnt mean to be rude cause you and ayah thought me not to, but that fucking ungrateful ad****d daughter of yours made me become someone who dont respect her at all. and im saying it again, i never regret and i will never apologise nor will i forgive.

okay thats all> im waiting for police to call me to know how my case report is going on.

*toodles*

anw, o level is on the 20th, gerek pe. and and my readers(i mean my friends), if you want to come my house for raya pls call me first cause im not living in that hell anymore. im living with my cousin at Lavender. ;)